A Midsummer Night's Dream

Alright so... This is the new look for the blog. It's got a whole new title and even a whole new weblink to access it. I felt it was time for some change. I have had an entire summer's worth of change. This summer has been the most spontaneous summer I have ever had. When I was younger I knew I was going to the pool everyday to swim or my mom had something planned. When I hit high school I started making my summer plans in about January. I did that this year but it didn't quite workout.

I have basically thrown away who I use to be and I started over. I mean I am 17 and I have time to really figure out what I want, belive, and stand for. I had just been taking in what ever I was spoon fed. Sure I was ask the basic questions but I never really went beyond the surface...of anything. I am now diving beyond the surface of myself. Looking at past experiences and taking from them lessons to carry me into the future. I have never been good with identifying my emotions or handling them, so this summer I began working on that. So much has changed for me. My outlook of so many things I thought I valued and respected so highly have disenigrated.

I really hope my senior year turns out great. Next week I take senior pictures and Im not really all that thrilled too. Then school begins. The schedule I thought I had got tossed out like last Fall's fashion. Now it looks a little something like this:

1-Art
2/3-AP English 4
4-Calc. 1/Calc. 2
5-Teachers Aide/WWII Nazi Germany
6-Organic Chem

It will most certainly be a challenge. I really wish I had gotten to take anatomy.

I love my brother and sister-in-laws new house, its so beautiful. I am so glad they are so happy together. They are truly each others compliments. I don't think my brother could have picked a better sister-in-law for me. Since I only have a brother, this is the only extra sibling Ill get. I have the perfect big sister. No shes not perfect as in never makes a mistake but she's imperfectly perfect.

I really value and respect her. She is so wise and mature. She knows how to just have fun and kick back though too. The thing I really admire about her is the fact the she is herself all the time 100% unapologetically. She is the same in front of me, as she is in front of my family, my brother, her family, her friends, and even strangers. Just 2 nights ago we went shopping and she always talked to the cashiers so friendly. She probably made their day just be noticing they are humans too and appreciating what they do. She is a great person and I would be lucky to become half the woman she is.

So I have been teaching myself russian lately. How you might ask? Well I'll tell you. There is a great website called mango. It lets you take 50 lessons of a language and learn at least enough to get you around and through a conversation. I am on lesson 4. It is a very simple program and it sticks with you very well. They offer around 10 or 11 languages. I highly recommend it if you want to pick up some extra foreign languages. I am really enjoying it. If I keep it up I might even major in Russian.

Speaking of major...that leads to College! I am excited and terrified all at the same time.
I have my choices narrowed down to UK and WKU, two excellent schools. I probably should make a pro/con list like my wise friend Ali suggested but Ill get to it eventually. I hate applying for all the random scholarships out there. Its so boring and time consuming. I dont even know how good my chances are but I guess free money is worth a shot. Hopefully Ill make a little extra to put toward college.

There are a lot of majors I am considering but mostly: Anthropology, Dietetics, International Studies, Linguistics, Public Reltions, Political Science, Sociology, and Russian.

Others Im just merely considering: Art history, Pre-med(ob/gyn), Social Work, and Other foreign languages.

I know its a lot to think about, but they are pretty connected. Most of them work hands on with people. I love politics and cultures and languages so theres another connection.

I really hope I can do dance this year, I miss dancing a lot. I hope when I go to school I can give crew, fencing, and lacrosse a shot. I have always wanted to do those three.

I am getting better at guitar. I love playing!

If you haven't read The Secret or The Last Lecture I highly recommend it.

Sorry for thr random mass of ranting but thats whats been on my mind.
Enjoy what's left of the Summer :)

xoabbyt.

Analyze that.

Okay so Mono is really irritating me. I get so tired so easy so I can only go to school half the time, and I have so much work to catch up on. I think I am just going to have to go and tough it out. 8 days and then Im a senior WOO. I have a crazy busy summer though so we'll see if I survive. I really need to start working out more, I could lose weight so easy if I just really tried. I have been thinking about boy wayyy too much lately. I just want what we had, it was so good. God will bring me someone when the time is right I know that. Any way I just needed to vent and rant a little.

Through the Looking Glass

Alright so I have been doing some thinking lately and heres what I have come up with. These are random jumbled thoughts so please forgive me. Anyways Thought 1:
-I have been thinking about the relationship I had with boy. It was basically my first "real" relationship. I met his fam, he met mine. We drove back and forth, stayed the night at each others places so forth. It was also the best relationship I have ever been in, he was so good to me. He was a true gentleman and I knew he deeply cared about me. It was also my longest, lasting for a total of 5 1/2 months. My realization is not that I want him back but that the next time I get into a relationship I want it to be able to rise to those standards and to go beyond. Those are some big shoes to fill and some high standards but I know there is a guy who can.

Thought 2
-I got mono again which bites. No really who gets mono twice, back to back. I mean seriously. Why me?
Sorry that whiny me :(.

Thought 3
-My fellow academy students, well the seniors, graduated today. They survived the whole year there. I just couldn't take it and I wanted a normal high school process, with normal expectations. I hate that I left WKU but I know this has helped me grow enormously. I am so proud of all the seniors though. They are going to do great things. To my class I know we have lost so many people but I know you guys are so close you will get through anything and everything together. To the incoming class good luck and enjoy it, it will be the time of your life mixed with hell.

Thought 4
-I keep listing the colleges on here and then 2 weeks later they change right well here Ill post the updated list again:
Xavier
WKU
University of Dayton
University of Tennessee
Union
Butler

Those are the ones Im seriously considering applying to. There was a few others but I realized they are wayy expensive or wayyy small and Im really wanting a school of atleast 4,000. Prefferably smaller than 10,000 but UT and WKU can be exceptions. I still have to visit 4 of those but Ive done quite a bit of research.

Alright I think that covers my thoughts. Me and my mono self are going to take mom out to get a pedicure. Well first we're going to shower.
I am sure I have a bazillion tons of homework waiting for me when I get back to school, I am so glad there are only like 11 days left.
Summer is going to be amazing. Ill keep you all updated as much as possible--no garuntees.
Maybe summer will bring love, here's to hoping hah Im seventeen years young I've got time to find love, to find a dream big enough, and to find what my lifes going to look like.

Here's to looking at you kid.

Spare Change

Alright so since March 11th, as you can imagine, a lot has happened. Boy and I broke things off because he had issues with the whole distance thing. It really hurt me at first, but what hurt even worse was going from talking every day and him being my best friend to hardly speaking. My great grandma passed away which has made things tougher, oh and I got mono. I'm over it now but it really sucked while it lasted. I am so excited for my summer it is jammed packed and crazy but it is going to be a blast. So after going on a few college visits and doing some more research my list now includes the following:
Xavier University
DePauw University
Union University
Cedarville University
Butler University
Western Kentucky University

Alternates/Back-Ups
UK
UofL
Bellarmine University


Thats what I know for now who knows how much that will change. I can't wait to take senior pics with my brother and sister-in-law it will be so much fun. Summer '08 is going to be great!

Rand McNally

High School is still going really well. I scheduled my senior year and I am taking the following:
1.College Algebra/Basic Public Speaking (both at community college)
2.Honors English 4
3.Sociology
4.Theatre 1/2
5.Concert Choir
6.Teachers Aide/Rec Dance

it's not going to be oh so easy but I won't be killing myself, at least I hope not.
Spring break is going to be amazing! It starts on my birthday, March 28th, and I am having my party woo. Boy is even coming up to celebrate with me, and I am so excited. It will have been 26 days total that I'd gone without seeing him! I miss him a lot now that we're so far apart and I am the only with a car but we make it work well.
So after the party I have science olympiad regionals, I know lame but I am a nerd. Then that monday I going to BG to hang out with all my wku friends and staying until wednesday morning at which point I am driving to Lexington to see Georgetown College and my brother and sister-in-law. On thursday I'm going to Cinci to see Xavier, and then driving back to Lex, and friday I am seeing UK and Bellarmine on the way home. It's going to be great.

I can't wait for spring fling for the bcm, I will definitely be there and I can't wait.

Summer is going to be so busy but I will probably see boy as much as I get to now. I can't wait until Ben and Haley's wedding! that will be awesome.

I am still doing makeup work but the semester ends friday so I think I'll be all caught up by then.
We took the ACT today and I am praying for at least a 26 or higher Id love a 28.

Well better go do that home/make-up work!