Alright, so I realize it's been quite sometime since I have used this thing, so all I have to say is wow. I don't even know where to begin.
Well I got accepted into UK so I'll be there next fall, and I am so excited for that. I think I'm going to rush so that will be good fun. I would say good clean fun, but you never know what'll happen.
So where to go next with this...
I think that the closest thing I have to a best friend at the moment is a wonderful girl I met through postsecret named renee. Seriously. It may sound weird, but it works. Alright so Ali and I..I dont know she just doesn't return my calls. Shelby claims I'm frustrating and refuses to speak. Ariana and I are all off and there like this wall between us. Taryn...I don't even know I think thats pretty much dissolved. Emily and I have always been close but I know I just I still can't seem to stop wondering about the real definition of best friend anyway. So I have been pretty much a loner for a while.
I also kind of shut a lot people out. I have good reason, it will just take time for me to explain it all. I had a pretty traumatic experience. I am not ready to really "talk," unless you're name happens to be renee and then I will keep you up til 4 am so that I'm not alone in the dark haha :). But seriously, if I have seemed distant, its because I have been. I am just not ready to go there yet.
I have been heavily relying on God, which has been very nice. He has become my only means of breathing. Everytime I breath in and breath out I never know if I'll be able to do it again, He keeps me breating. He keeps me safe. I feel His presence more now than ever, and all that I have comes from Him. Like the strength of even pushing myself out of bed in the morning.
I think I'll be stronger though, I know I will be. I know it will all be ok. But right now I just don't want to be alone, that's probably my biggest fear.
Alright so, what else? I have been losing weight and it's paying off Im in my goal jeans. Well my first goal jeans. I have made it through the first obstacle. I have a long way to go, but I'm doing this for the sake of my health just being healthy. I don't have to be skinny, just in shape and healthy.
Love life...lets not even discuss boys. There's always the off and on with summer boy. Right now we're friends, I love having a great guy friend. I would love him to be more, if we could have that summer back. But I don't know I guess things will play out the way they are meant to in the end.
I don't know what else there is to say. I have just been trying to get to know myself, I have a lot of time to think. I don't really care about grades much anymore. I mean if I pull some A's and some B's I'm happy It doesn't have to be perfect anymore. Nothing is perfect, and I am not in control.
So I gotta keep on keepin' on, I suppose.
xoabbyt.
12.06.2008
11.14.2008
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
Okay so this week has been a little off, well compared to my norms. Shall I explain, you ask? Why not! I have nothing better to do than to blog about my amazing boring life ha. Sorry for the extra pinch over sarcasm today, I'm really not myself. You see I have cluster migraines and usually taking my meds, sleeping, and a hot washclothe will fix that...not this time! I have had a migraine for 3 days! Let me just say that is miserable in case you haven't ever had one. Mine is so bad it has caused nausea, dizziness, and made me really weak. I went to a clinic, because I don't have a doctor at the moment, but they gave me a muscle relaxor and a pain killer. I will go see a doctor next week but for now I am just uber drowsy and draggy. I feel like I should get up and do something but I don't the endurance or stamina. I am also very noise and light sensitive, which is just awesome since the world has to have light and there is always going to be noise. I haven't really done much for the past few days to sum it up since I have been pretty lazy.
On to something not anymore exciting but possibly less whiny. I haven't really gotten anything accomplished but I'm going to try to do that today. I did send in my applications to UK and UofL, the only schools I am applying to. I pray I am accepted into UK. My dream is to be there in the middle of Lexington this time next year. I am not really sure as to what to major, I have this huge book on majors and I mean I am considering quite a few possibilities so we'll see. I have thought about: poltical science, sociology, occupational therapy, economics, linguistics, public relations, and maybe a foreign language. One of those, hey at least I have it decently narrowed down. I'm just praying it all works out for me to be there and be in Commonwealth stadium screaming C-A-T-S CATS CATS CATS!
What is exciting is Taylor Swifts new album! It blows me away, I mean it seriously made my jaw drop. She is so incredibly talented. I wish I could play guitar as well as she can. Chords are a breeze...for the most part, but I can't pick at all. I would be really greatful if i could learn, but we're talking about Taylor here. So she has really evolved her sound. It's still her but it just has this matured sound to it. I watched her on her myspace doing a live video chat and she is just so real. She didn't try to dress up or get mad if something messed up, she just laughed at herself when something went wrong. Seriously though, I know my blog only gets looked at by maybe 1 person a week but YOU should go get her new album.
I am so in love with my laptop and my new cell phone. They are the best! I love having texting, it is seriously the best. So if your looking for a new laptop I recommend the Dell Studio 15, and as for a new cell phone the LG Shine is very reliable. I wish I had waited 2 weeks and gotten the Samsung Propel because it looks amazing, its like a blackjack that is a slider. So there's my technology reviews for the week.
I think I am way tangled up into One Tree Hill and Grey's Anatomy this season. I have always been a huge follower but this season is a big deal for both of them. Both of them are in their 5 season. I have all of the Grey's on dvd and when Im sick, like now, or I am having a bad day I put in one of the discs and watch all of the episode on that disc. I have been doing that for 3 days now, I have seen the all the seasons of Grey's over 10 times. I can quote most lines, but I just like it...alot okay.
I received a letter from my little girl in Hondouras that I sponsor. She is so amazing. Her 10th birthday is in less than a month. She is such a huge encouragement to me. I write her back too and she always tells me how for her, when she has a bad day she re-reads my letters. I think it is such a reward to be able to help support her. I sponsor her through a group called Compassion. Its a committment of 34 dollars a month but it gets her doctor bills, dental bills, school, gets her to church, helps her family afford food, and a portion is saved each month to go to a christmas gift. Her family makes about 8 dollars a month and she has 5 other siblings so I feel like I make a difference for her, and I know she makes a difference for me.
So I think to sum it up I am really sick of being sick and my head hurting. Taylor Swift's album is incredible and YOU must buy it! I want to go to UK so bad. I love sponoring my child. Grey's Antomy and One Tree Hill=Life. Oh and Sophia Bush from One Tree Hill is pretty awesome too. We didn't talk about love life, but there's still nothing there. However I think I know who I might ask to prom so thats exciting. I have my first weigh in at Curves next wednesday so we'll see how much progress I have made in a month. I set a new record for our curves, most calories burned in 1 workout--in 30 minutes I burned 650 calories.
Now I am going to get on my giant to do list and try to get something accomplished, but thats unlikely.
xoabbyt.
On to something not anymore exciting but possibly less whiny. I haven't really gotten anything accomplished but I'm going to try to do that today. I did send in my applications to UK and UofL, the only schools I am applying to. I pray I am accepted into UK. My dream is to be there in the middle of Lexington this time next year. I am not really sure as to what to major, I have this huge book on majors and I mean I am considering quite a few possibilities so we'll see. I have thought about: poltical science, sociology, occupational therapy, economics, linguistics, public relations, and maybe a foreign language. One of those, hey at least I have it decently narrowed down. I'm just praying it all works out for me to be there and be in Commonwealth stadium screaming C-A-T-S CATS CATS CATS!
What is exciting is Taylor Swifts new album! It blows me away, I mean it seriously made my jaw drop. She is so incredibly talented. I wish I could play guitar as well as she can. Chords are a breeze...for the most part, but I can't pick at all. I would be really greatful if i could learn, but we're talking about Taylor here. So she has really evolved her sound. It's still her but it just has this matured sound to it. I watched her on her myspace doing a live video chat and she is just so real. She didn't try to dress up or get mad if something messed up, she just laughed at herself when something went wrong. Seriously though, I know my blog only gets looked at by maybe 1 person a week but YOU should go get her new album.
I am so in love with my laptop and my new cell phone. They are the best! I love having texting, it is seriously the best. So if your looking for a new laptop I recommend the Dell Studio 15, and as for a new cell phone the LG Shine is very reliable. I wish I had waited 2 weeks and gotten the Samsung Propel because it looks amazing, its like a blackjack that is a slider. So there's my technology reviews for the week.
I think I am way tangled up into One Tree Hill and Grey's Anatomy this season. I have always been a huge follower but this season is a big deal for both of them. Both of them are in their 5 season. I have all of the Grey's on dvd and when Im sick, like now, or I am having a bad day I put in one of the discs and watch all of the episode on that disc. I have been doing that for 3 days now, I have seen the all the seasons of Grey's over 10 times. I can quote most lines, but I just like it...alot okay.
I received a letter from my little girl in Hondouras that I sponsor. She is so amazing. Her 10th birthday is in less than a month. She is such a huge encouragement to me. I write her back too and she always tells me how for her, when she has a bad day she re-reads my letters. I think it is such a reward to be able to help support her. I sponsor her through a group called Compassion. Its a committment of 34 dollars a month but it gets her doctor bills, dental bills, school, gets her to church, helps her family afford food, and a portion is saved each month to go to a christmas gift. Her family makes about 8 dollars a month and she has 5 other siblings so I feel like I make a difference for her, and I know she makes a difference for me.
So I think to sum it up I am really sick of being sick and my head hurting. Taylor Swift's album is incredible and YOU must buy it! I want to go to UK so bad. I love sponoring my child. Grey's Antomy and One Tree Hill=Life. Oh and Sophia Bush from One Tree Hill is pretty awesome too. We didn't talk about love life, but there's still nothing there. However I think I know who I might ask to prom so thats exciting. I have my first weigh in at Curves next wednesday so we'll see how much progress I have made in a month. I set a new record for our curves, most calories burned in 1 workout--in 30 minutes I burned 650 calories.
Now I am going to get on my giant to do list and try to get something accomplished, but thats unlikely.
xoabbyt.
11.09.2008
Macaroni Noodles
I was looking at my blog for the first time in a month laughing at one of my top things. Can you guess it? I said I was happy gas was in the $3.30's! HA! Gas is $1.92 now and I couldn't be happier. I cant fill my tank for under twenty dollars, Im still shocked when it stops before it even hits twenty.
Things have been rough lately. I have had my ups and downs that for sure. I don't come from the greatest family. Sometimes I think they try but I don't know how much more effort they could put forth. I have done really well with coping with it all and I have been going 10 months strong. I have to count on other people sometime to hold me up when I get weak but I think I am finally realizing I can't do it all on my own.
I have been getting back into the depths of my relationship with Christ as well. I began having one on one time again and it's been really good for me. I don't know why but sometimes I just walk away until I turn around and run right back.
I have finished my college applications. I only applies to two schools, my top choice and my back up--UK and UofL. I pray that this time next year I will be in Lexington, the best city ever, and at UK. It has everything I want. I am not compromising anything for it. UofL I would be but hopefully I can make UK work out. I have quite a few scholarships I'm applying for and I really need to get a few of them. I also am taking the ACT again in December and really need to pull 3 points higher, a 28. This would really help ease the financial burden on my parents because $15,800 is no where near what I call cheap.
I have been trying to get healthy lately. I have been at it for 2 weeks now and so far so good. I have made a lot of changes to my eating habits and what I eat. I also joined Curves which has been a tremendous step for me. It kicks my butt but it will make me better for it. I have a long way to go but so far I have lost 2.5 lbs. I don't want to get skinny although being able to see a single digit on jeans again would be nice and fitting into a pair of hollister jeans would be out of this world. But all I know if that I want to look and feel good. I would kill to be able to buy a bikini when its swimsuit season, I never have bought one but for now Im a long way a way. I am taking it one 10 lbs block at a time. I am hoping to look and feel great at prom and graduation and in a 1 piece when I lifegaurd next summer. Im not asking for the perfect body or abs I just know I can do this and I need to do this. I love doing outdoor activities I need to be more active. I don't exactly have the best family medical history, plus I don't want to give my kids the start I got off to.
Also I would love to find a guy who is very much an outdoors person. Rapelling, skiing, whitewater rafting, hiking, camping, kayaking, and more. I am all about the outdoors. I don't get to do it enough but I love it when I do. When I am in shape I will be able to do it more and have a better time with it. I also love most sports anyway. Lacrosse, football, soccer, baseball, basketball, tennis. I am a pretty big sports buff. I also love action movies because of the adrenaline rush. Anything that gives you an adrenaline rush Im game for. I would love to try sky diving sometime but for now I just stick to the biggest, baddest rollar coasters I can find at amusement parks. I don't do the sissy rides I just do rollar coasters and the water park.
The love life is still at a 0 but I am okay with that. Not completely of course but I love this year at school. I have really branched out and became friends with a lot of guys. That has been...interesting. I say hi to so many people when I walk through the halls its amazing. This year is definitely the best. I can't wait for it to be over so I can start UK but at the same time I don't want to grow up. I am alright with the single factor because I don't want it to be with someone random, I want that adventurous outsdoors guy which I doubt Ill meet 'til I get in shape and become more outdoorsy and adventurous. I also probably won't meet him until college, which is fine by me since I didn't really want to be tied down for my senior year anyway. The one thing I do worry about though is...prom date. That will be interesting to see how it all plays out.
I don't think anything else really exciting has happened. I am really going to try to update this more but no garuntees I stay pretty busy. Wish me luck & I'll keep you guys updates.
xoabbyt.
Things have been rough lately. I have had my ups and downs that for sure. I don't come from the greatest family. Sometimes I think they try but I don't know how much more effort they could put forth. I have done really well with coping with it all and I have been going 10 months strong. I have to count on other people sometime to hold me up when I get weak but I think I am finally realizing I can't do it all on my own.
I have been getting back into the depths of my relationship with Christ as well. I began having one on one time again and it's been really good for me. I don't know why but sometimes I just walk away until I turn around and run right back.
I have finished my college applications. I only applies to two schools, my top choice and my back up--UK and UofL. I pray that this time next year I will be in Lexington, the best city ever, and at UK. It has everything I want. I am not compromising anything for it. UofL I would be but hopefully I can make UK work out. I have quite a few scholarships I'm applying for and I really need to get a few of them. I also am taking the ACT again in December and really need to pull 3 points higher, a 28. This would really help ease the financial burden on my parents because $15,800 is no where near what I call cheap.
I have been trying to get healthy lately. I have been at it for 2 weeks now and so far so good. I have made a lot of changes to my eating habits and what I eat. I also joined Curves which has been a tremendous step for me. It kicks my butt but it will make me better for it. I have a long way to go but so far I have lost 2.5 lbs. I don't want to get skinny although being able to see a single digit on jeans again would be nice and fitting into a pair of hollister jeans would be out of this world. But all I know if that I want to look and feel good. I would kill to be able to buy a bikini when its swimsuit season, I never have bought one but for now Im a long way a way. I am taking it one 10 lbs block at a time. I am hoping to look and feel great at prom and graduation and in a 1 piece when I lifegaurd next summer. Im not asking for the perfect body or abs I just know I can do this and I need to do this. I love doing outdoor activities I need to be more active. I don't exactly have the best family medical history, plus I don't want to give my kids the start I got off to.
Also I would love to find a guy who is very much an outdoors person. Rapelling, skiing, whitewater rafting, hiking, camping, kayaking, and more. I am all about the outdoors. I don't get to do it enough but I love it when I do. When I am in shape I will be able to do it more and have a better time with it. I also love most sports anyway. Lacrosse, football, soccer, baseball, basketball, tennis. I am a pretty big sports buff. I also love action movies because of the adrenaline rush. Anything that gives you an adrenaline rush Im game for. I would love to try sky diving sometime but for now I just stick to the biggest, baddest rollar coasters I can find at amusement parks. I don't do the sissy rides I just do rollar coasters and the water park.
The love life is still at a 0 but I am okay with that. Not completely of course but I love this year at school. I have really branched out and became friends with a lot of guys. That has been...interesting. I say hi to so many people when I walk through the halls its amazing. This year is definitely the best. I can't wait for it to be over so I can start UK but at the same time I don't want to grow up. I am alright with the single factor because I don't want it to be with someone random, I want that adventurous outsdoors guy which I doubt Ill meet 'til I get in shape and become more outdoorsy and adventurous. I also probably won't meet him until college, which is fine by me since I didn't really want to be tied down for my senior year anyway. The one thing I do worry about though is...prom date. That will be interesting to see how it all plays out.
I don't think anything else really exciting has happened. I am really going to try to update this more but no garuntees I stay pretty busy. Wish me luck & I'll keep you guys updates.
xoabbyt.
10.06.2008
Playlist of my teenage life
Everything has been going pretty well. I made all A's on my report card, I didn't think that was even possible. I'm getting terribly nervous about having to make a choice on college. I am applying to NKU, UofL, and UK so it's not like there are just too many it's that I like them all.
On to something I don't already spend 50% of my blogs blogging about. The love life is still dormant but I actually kind of enjoy being single. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't mind if a great guy walked into my life but I'm not going to go searching him out.
I have made a lot of new friends lately. I am so thankful for that. This year I have been able to become friends with guys a lot easier. I also met an amazing girl who is a foreign exchange student from China. Then I have a great new friend from my anatomy class, she's pretty amazing. We're really similiar on every subject except politics. Her brother is 2 years older than I am but I'm begging her to hook me up, I think we'd have a lot in common too, not to mention he's very good looking.
I have had a pinched nerve in my back which really stinks but I finally found a patch that helps it, I hope it will go away soon.
I love being on fall break it is so nice to not be under piles of homework but I know this time next week I'll be right back under them. BOO.
That's about all thats new. Not to exciting I know but maybe after this week or a couple weeks I'll have an interesting story for you to read.
I highly recommend seeing Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist--great movie!
xoabbyt.
On to something I don't already spend 50% of my blogs blogging about. The love life is still dormant but I actually kind of enjoy being single. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't mind if a great guy walked into my life but I'm not going to go searching him out.
I have made a lot of new friends lately. I am so thankful for that. This year I have been able to become friends with guys a lot easier. I also met an amazing girl who is a foreign exchange student from China. Then I have a great new friend from my anatomy class, she's pretty amazing. We're really similiar on every subject except politics. Her brother is 2 years older than I am but I'm begging her to hook me up, I think we'd have a lot in common too, not to mention he's very good looking.
I have had a pinched nerve in my back which really stinks but I finally found a patch that helps it, I hope it will go away soon.
I love being on fall break it is so nice to not be under piles of homework but I know this time next week I'll be right back under them. BOO.
That's about all thats new. Not to exciting I know but maybe after this week or a couple weeks I'll have an interesting story for you to read.
I highly recommend seeing Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist--great movie!
xoabbyt.
9.20.2008
Confetti
Wow! It's almost been a month since I have wrote anything. I have just gotten so busy and caught up in everything else going on around me. I don't know where to begin...
I think wresting with my faith and what I believe made me stronger and it helped me come to a place where I have whole-hearted reassurance.
School is alright I suppose. I am no artist but I get an A for effort in Art. I am in two english classes at the moment and its a little odd. The first one is mostly reading, which Im not to fond of. I, however, love the second one. We learn how to argue and then go into arguements. It's amazing! Anatomy is pretty fun, it's definitely very interesting. Organic Chemistry is my biggest royal pain. I have such a hard time with it. I hope I survive it alright.
Oh College! Boy am I confused! I have to tour NKU and UofL but I think I will apply anyways. I have already completed my UofL application. I am also, of course, applying to UK. All of them are in decent size metropolitan areas. All have law schools. I am leaning towards Political Science and Linguistics more than any other majors. I want to minor a foreign language for sure. The only problem is UK is the only one that offers Linguistics. It is definitely going to be a tough choice.
I think I am going to take the ACT for a 5th and final time. I wanted to do the october deadline I just dont feel like Id be able to study as much as I want to. Applications aren't technically due in until feb. and march so I think I will take the one in december. If I make a 24 or 25 like all the other times so be it but I will hopefully hit a point or two above this time if I study as hard as I want to.
I am hopefully going to get to go to WKU to visit all of my friends next weekend. I would be so excited if I get to. Fall break is only 2 weeks away, I can't wait! I need to really get working on my applications. Senior year is nothing but a whirlwind of mass chaos. It's so insane. I hope I survive it all.
I love my new job, Im a telemarketer for auto insurance. I make really good moeny for only working 6 hours a week.
I am so glad everything is falling into place, it always does it always will.
I look forward to seeing how far I have come by the end of this year and looking back over all of my blogs to see the progress.
I can't wait for a letter from the little girl I sponsor in hondouras.
"The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one."
xoabbyt.
I think wresting with my faith and what I believe made me stronger and it helped me come to a place where I have whole-hearted reassurance.
School is alright I suppose. I am no artist but I get an A for effort in Art. I am in two english classes at the moment and its a little odd. The first one is mostly reading, which Im not to fond of. I, however, love the second one. We learn how to argue and then go into arguements. It's amazing! Anatomy is pretty fun, it's definitely very interesting. Organic Chemistry is my biggest royal pain. I have such a hard time with it. I hope I survive it alright.
Oh College! Boy am I confused! I have to tour NKU and UofL but I think I will apply anyways. I have already completed my UofL application. I am also, of course, applying to UK. All of them are in decent size metropolitan areas. All have law schools. I am leaning towards Political Science and Linguistics more than any other majors. I want to minor a foreign language for sure. The only problem is UK is the only one that offers Linguistics. It is definitely going to be a tough choice.
I think I am going to take the ACT for a 5th and final time. I wanted to do the october deadline I just dont feel like Id be able to study as much as I want to. Applications aren't technically due in until feb. and march so I think I will take the one in december. If I make a 24 or 25 like all the other times so be it but I will hopefully hit a point or two above this time if I study as hard as I want to.
I am hopefully going to get to go to WKU to visit all of my friends next weekend. I would be so excited if I get to. Fall break is only 2 weeks away, I can't wait! I need to really get working on my applications. Senior year is nothing but a whirlwind of mass chaos. It's so insane. I hope I survive it all.
I love my new job, Im a telemarketer for auto insurance. I make really good moeny for only working 6 hours a week.
I am so glad everything is falling into place, it always does it always will.
I look forward to seeing how far I have come by the end of this year and looking back over all of my blogs to see the progress.
I can't wait for a letter from the little girl I sponsor in hondouras.
"The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one."
xoabbyt.
8.30.2008
Welcome to the Jungle
I don't even know where to begin. You have no idea how much can happen in 10 days.
Let's start with the good stuff...I like to hear the good news before the bad.
I am really proud of myself. This year I have really put everything behind me and let the past live in the past. A lot of people who I considered "enemies" are now friends of mine. Also I have never been good at having guy friends but this year I have quite a few. I am trying to really focus of my studies this year. I have joined about 4 clubs which I will really try to dedicate myself to.
I may have a job, Ill know for sure after this week is over. So thats a plus. It would only be 6 hours a week, and I would make atleast 42 dollars more than likely around 70 so thats some extra spending/gas money.
I am set on UK however when it comes to majors I have no idea. Im considering Political Science, Linguistics, and Foreign Languages more than anything else but Im going in as undeclared...as well as 3 hours shy of being a sophomore. I may try to take a summer course at the community college just so I can full be a sophomore.
I don't have any crazy love life boy drama which is such a nice change. No point in getting attached before going off to college.
I still really love all of my classes, I dont know if Ill love them so much after my first test grade but we'll see. My hardest class is Organic Chem. I am really enjoying Anatomy and Art. Both are classes I just thought Id be apathetic about. English isn't too challenging, but it's about to get harder and harder I can tell. I hope I can make it through that class alright.
I am starting to figure some things out about my beliefs. I think I was just a crossroads, a point where all I had was blindness. I have started trying to read the bible to figure out some answers. I am going to church tomorrow for the first time in over a month. I know a lot of people really care about me and I am so thankful to have amazing people like that in my life. My wondering heart is beginning to emerge from the darkness. One thing I can say is that if I do fall on the path I was on before I will believe whole heartedly and I will not act the same. I didnt think I put people below me, but I did. I will not make that same mistake.
Ali is leaning more and more toward UK which makes me really happy. I would so love to be at the same place together. I miss her terribly. I am just really thankful we take the time to talk most everyday. She is one of the biggest blessings in my life, and she is my best friend.
I think that covers the good.
I am in such a good mood I dont even want to discuss the bad so I'll leave it at that and let all of you be happy as well.
I am so excited to see how my senior year plays out. I need to get my camera battery charged and start taking tons of pictures.
To all of you who care about me and take the time to read this, I appreciate it and you mean a lot to me.
Enjoy the 3 day weekend!
xoabbyt.
Let's start with the good stuff...I like to hear the good news before the bad.
I am really proud of myself. This year I have really put everything behind me and let the past live in the past. A lot of people who I considered "enemies" are now friends of mine. Also I have never been good at having guy friends but this year I have quite a few. I am trying to really focus of my studies this year. I have joined about 4 clubs which I will really try to dedicate myself to.
I may have a job, Ill know for sure after this week is over. So thats a plus. It would only be 6 hours a week, and I would make atleast 42 dollars more than likely around 70 so thats some extra spending/gas money.
I am set on UK however when it comes to majors I have no idea. Im considering Political Science, Linguistics, and Foreign Languages more than anything else but Im going in as undeclared...as well as 3 hours shy of being a sophomore. I may try to take a summer course at the community college just so I can full be a sophomore.
I don't have any crazy love life boy drama which is such a nice change. No point in getting attached before going off to college.
I still really love all of my classes, I dont know if Ill love them so much after my first test grade but we'll see. My hardest class is Organic Chem. I am really enjoying Anatomy and Art. Both are classes I just thought Id be apathetic about. English isn't too challenging, but it's about to get harder and harder I can tell. I hope I can make it through that class alright.
I am starting to figure some things out about my beliefs. I think I was just a crossroads, a point where all I had was blindness. I have started trying to read the bible to figure out some answers. I am going to church tomorrow for the first time in over a month. I know a lot of people really care about me and I am so thankful to have amazing people like that in my life. My wondering heart is beginning to emerge from the darkness. One thing I can say is that if I do fall on the path I was on before I will believe whole heartedly and I will not act the same. I didnt think I put people below me, but I did. I will not make that same mistake.
Ali is leaning more and more toward UK which makes me really happy. I would so love to be at the same place together. I miss her terribly. I am just really thankful we take the time to talk most everyday. She is one of the biggest blessings in my life, and she is my best friend.
I think that covers the good.
I am in such a good mood I dont even want to discuss the bad so I'll leave it at that and let all of you be happy as well.
I am so excited to see how my senior year plays out. I need to get my camera battery charged and start taking tons of pictures.
To all of you who care about me and take the time to read this, I appreciate it and you mean a lot to me.
Enjoy the 3 day weekend!
xoabbyt.
8.17.2008
The Lion Sleeps Tonight
Things have been improving since my last blog, in case you were wondering. It was just a really crappy day. I just didn't feel like I had a lot of hope that day. Things are pretty peachy right about now though. Its been a good weekend.
I spent the night with my friend S on friday, on saturday we went shopping. I got this adorable dresss and 2 pair of jeans. I also bought 2 pair of sunglasses and a ring. My favorite item had to be my new back pack. Am I a nerd or what? No but seriously this backpack is so awesome. It is Zebra Print! My sister-in-law got me addicted to Zebra print. By the way, it is really in right now so you too should jump on the band wagon. But its really cute plus it has pink zippers and stitching so that adds to just how fabulous it truly is.
We played wii for a while and then went to the best mexican resteraunt you will ever eat at...Los Toribios. We rented Vantage Point, which I highly reccomend. It was a very good action/thriller. We watched this documentary about high school students in china to kill sometime because we were going to sneak out and go play a prank but we got tired. So we were like we'll wake up in the middle of the night and do it, but we didnt we were so tired.
I have basically been doing homework all day. I have a test everyday until thursday boo! I really need to start figuring out a way to balance everything better. I am going to call about this job and hopefully get a little extra spending money yay!! I do have homework it's just not a terribly taxing amount. I couldnt have to work everyday but a few nights wouldn't be awful.
I am still pretty set on UK, I think I'm going to stay with Ali, who all of you know is my wise friend. She does exsists by the way, she thinks I make her sound like my invisible yoda or something. She lives in lexington so I will do another tour when I see her.
I will keep promoting Obama on my blog, so if your a McCain fan Im sorry. You will only have to hear about it until november 4. On november 5th hopefully I will get to write a very happy blog.
One thing I hate about being friends with guys is mixed signals. Either you both like each other or one of you does. There is always confusion as to which one it is though. I feel like in the situation Im in, that it is both but I dont want to be wrong.
Last night I got my first drunk dial call. It was interesting to say the least.
Postsecret is really good this week, if you don't know what it is you really need to check it out.
www.postsecret.com
Tomorrow night Im going to see the governor speak, I am so excited. I am such a politics geek. I really think Political Science would be a perfect major for me. Who knows maybe I'll be the governor one day, or maybe a lawyer.
I really believe you should follow your dreams no matter what. If they seem impossible, they probably are but if you work at it, I truly believe even the impossible can come true. I'm going to work toward my dream of doing something to better every person. I want to help my county, I love America. I want to see our country as the giant melting pot it was meant to be. I want to see America rise to the top again, because I believe that it is possible. I want to be part of that change.
I think thats all of the random rants I have.
Other than I love where I am at in my life right now.
I hate that my sims isn't working.
I'll be really glad when I can be done with the Invisible Man.
I am super excited for the new fall season of tv shows to start.
I am in love with the olympics.
I don't know if any of this helped or mattered but you can always leave a comment to let me know what you think. I think I can take constructive criticism.
xoabbyt.
I spent the night with my friend S on friday, on saturday we went shopping. I got this adorable dresss and 2 pair of jeans. I also bought 2 pair of sunglasses and a ring. My favorite item had to be my new back pack. Am I a nerd or what? No but seriously this backpack is so awesome. It is Zebra Print! My sister-in-law got me addicted to Zebra print. By the way, it is really in right now so you too should jump on the band wagon. But its really cute plus it has pink zippers and stitching so that adds to just how fabulous it truly is.
We played wii for a while and then went to the best mexican resteraunt you will ever eat at...Los Toribios. We rented Vantage Point, which I highly reccomend. It was a very good action/thriller. We watched this documentary about high school students in china to kill sometime because we were going to sneak out and go play a prank but we got tired. So we were like we'll wake up in the middle of the night and do it, but we didnt we were so tired.
I have basically been doing homework all day. I have a test everyday until thursday boo! I really need to start figuring out a way to balance everything better. I am going to call about this job and hopefully get a little extra spending money yay!! I do have homework it's just not a terribly taxing amount. I couldnt have to work everyday but a few nights wouldn't be awful.
I am still pretty set on UK, I think I'm going to stay with Ali, who all of you know is my wise friend. She does exsists by the way, she thinks I make her sound like my invisible yoda or something. She lives in lexington so I will do another tour when I see her.
I will keep promoting Obama on my blog, so if your a McCain fan Im sorry. You will only have to hear about it until november 4. On november 5th hopefully I will get to write a very happy blog.
One thing I hate about being friends with guys is mixed signals. Either you both like each other or one of you does. There is always confusion as to which one it is though. I feel like in the situation Im in, that it is both but I dont want to be wrong.
Last night I got my first drunk dial call. It was interesting to say the least.
Postsecret is really good this week, if you don't know what it is you really need to check it out.
www.postsecret.com
Tomorrow night Im going to see the governor speak, I am so excited. I am such a politics geek. I really think Political Science would be a perfect major for me. Who knows maybe I'll be the governor one day, or maybe a lawyer.
I really believe you should follow your dreams no matter what. If they seem impossible, they probably are but if you work at it, I truly believe even the impossible can come true. I'm going to work toward my dream of doing something to better every person. I want to help my county, I love America. I want to see our country as the giant melting pot it was meant to be. I want to see America rise to the top again, because I believe that it is possible. I want to be part of that change.
I think thats all of the random rants I have.
Other than I love where I am at in my life right now.
I hate that my sims isn't working.
I'll be really glad when I can be done with the Invisible Man.
I am super excited for the new fall season of tv shows to start.
I am in love with the olympics.
I don't know if any of this helped or mattered but you can always leave a comment to let me know what you think. I think I can take constructive criticism.
xoabbyt.
8.14.2008
Confusionism
Today is not a good day at all. I feel like I'm a nobody when I walk through those halls, but when it comes to the talk of the halls man, I'm everybody. When I returned from wku I was the talk of all talk. It died down over the summer. It's back
This time about the stupidest thing. My personal life--my religion. Apparently before I was what is being deemed as "super religious". Now, like coming out of the gay closet, I have apparently declared my atheism. It has spread from freshman to senior. The thing is thats not exactly true. I am what I have termed as confusionism. I do not accept nor reject religion. I do care, but I am trying to figure things out for myself, instead of consuming what has been spoonfed to me for 17 years. I don't know what I really believe about God so I dont want to still say Im christian and act like a hypocrite or I could just say I am confused and try to figure it out. But not in my small town, but huge high school. No, not for me. I have to be at the top of the gossip chain.
A lot of you may not agree with me being upset about this but I am so this is just me venting how I feel.
I am just so annoyed, offended, ashamed, and confused.
I thought about ending my 6 months, for the first time since but I didnt. Im just walking around in the dark. I dont feel like there are tangible answers to any of this.
Not to help my day a pretty good friend of mine was in a really bad car wreck today. Luckily he is alive. He flipped he expedition 3 times and broke 2 vertebrae in his back. He also has a concussion. He wont have to go through surgery but he is on bedrest for 2 weeks and he will have a back brace for 3 months and probably have to endure some physical therapy. My graduating high school class has seen 6 deaths. I am so sick of car wrecks.
That brings me to my next point.
Im fed up with immaturity, you may think the way I feel is immature so Im sorry if that is the case. I just Im ready to graduate and go start my like at UK, far far away.
Im over highschool, the drama, the shallowness, the racism, the conceitedness, the immaturity, the stupidity, the carelessness, the apathy.
I just dont know what I believe, there for I am a confusionist. I will try not to think about those thoughts.
No promises, no garuntees in the outcome.
xoabbyt.
This time about the stupidest thing. My personal life--my religion. Apparently before I was what is being deemed as "super religious". Now, like coming out of the gay closet, I have apparently declared my atheism. It has spread from freshman to senior. The thing is thats not exactly true. I am what I have termed as confusionism. I do not accept nor reject religion. I do care, but I am trying to figure things out for myself, instead of consuming what has been spoonfed to me for 17 years. I don't know what I really believe about God so I dont want to still say Im christian and act like a hypocrite or I could just say I am confused and try to figure it out. But not in my small town, but huge high school. No, not for me. I have to be at the top of the gossip chain.
A lot of you may not agree with me being upset about this but I am so this is just me venting how I feel.
I am just so annoyed, offended, ashamed, and confused.
I thought about ending my 6 months, for the first time since but I didnt. Im just walking around in the dark. I dont feel like there are tangible answers to any of this.
Not to help my day a pretty good friend of mine was in a really bad car wreck today. Luckily he is alive. He flipped he expedition 3 times and broke 2 vertebrae in his back. He also has a concussion. He wont have to go through surgery but he is on bedrest for 2 weeks and he will have a back brace for 3 months and probably have to endure some physical therapy. My graduating high school class has seen 6 deaths. I am so sick of car wrecks.
That brings me to my next point.
Im fed up with immaturity, you may think the way I feel is immature so Im sorry if that is the case. I just Im ready to graduate and go start my like at UK, far far away.
Im over highschool, the drama, the shallowness, the racism, the conceitedness, the immaturity, the stupidity, the carelessness, the apathy.
I just dont know what I believe, there for I am a confusionist. I will try not to think about those thoughts.
No promises, no garuntees in the outcome.
xoabbyt.
8.13.2008
I hope
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHEO_fG3mm4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghSJsEVf0pU
Check the video, Listen closely, Take it to heart, Register, Vote, Make a Difference, Change the World.
This is something you need to see. This empowers me, it encourages me to have faith in a nation I believe so much. So to U.S.A., YES WE CAN!
I believe in a better tomorrow, in a better future. I believe in change. I believe in my generation. I believe in hope. I believe that our problems have solutions. I believe in diversity. I believe in unity. I believe in someone who believes in me.
What do you believe?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghSJsEVf0pU
Check the video, Listen closely, Take it to heart, Register, Vote, Make a Difference, Change the World.
This is something you need to see. This empowers me, it encourages me to have faith in a nation I believe so much. So to U.S.A., YES WE CAN!
I believe in a better tomorrow, in a better future. I believe in change. I believe in my generation. I believe in hope. I believe that our problems have solutions. I believe in diversity. I believe in unity. I believe in someone who believes in me.
What do you believe?
8.11.2008
Folsom Prison Blues
I truly have become a blogging addict. I love it! It's such a fantastic way to vent what I need to. Some of you stumble across my blog randomly while others check it to keep posted on what's going on in my life. So thanks for reading :).
I want to make one note on the previous blog. Someone suggested today that I should be titles agnostic, but that would mean I believe in a higher power but don't worship it. I don't even know if I believe there is a "higher power" so I would like to be called neither atheist nor agnostic...I think the word confused will fit. Maybe I should just make a new word for all the people like me out there, because I know I can't be the only one to ever feel this way and go through this kind of experience.
Homework is beginning it's consumption of my life. I have quite a bit to read tonight as well as a quiz everyday for the next week. Then Im sure many tests will come. I think I have enough of a challenge without killing myself, but I must say I don't have all that much slack that you would expect for a senior.
I am counting down the days, there are 168 of them left HOORAH!
In Grey's Anatomy Meredith Grey does a voiceover saying "I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong? What if you make a mistake you can’t undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true: that by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor."
You're probably wondering why in the world I would quote that. It is because I believe it to be truth. Humans are naturally and instinctively driven by fear. Sometimes it is a good fear that motivates us. Like fear of heart disease if we gain anymore weight, so we beginning excercising. There's also many unhealthy fears. Fear of failure. Perfectionist's, like myself, almost always live with a fear of this. Because of this in many cases and situations we don't try. We don't try to become an astronaut because we think we would make a better teacher or that we aren't good enough to get in law school so why bother.
The fear that consumes most seniors at one point or another during their senior year is the fear of making a decision. Ali, my wise friend, noted that the decision of your choice of continuing education impacts almost everything for the rest of your life. It can depend on what you make, what jobs are available to you, what opportunities you have, your networking, your spouse, your kids, where you will live, all of this and more. Just because of where you decided to study for college. I don't know about you but that is a bit overwhelming. The thing is we have to trust our gut. We have to wholeheartedly believe we made the right decision in which ever we choose because if we don't we begin to look for reasons why we shouldn't have gone with this. We begin to compare it to where we could have been. We wonder what our lives would be like if only we had chosen the other school.
I have a hard time with this myself, seeing as I have never been a person to really just go with my gut but I am growing up and I need to do more of that. People with dissapoint you again and again, religion may come up short, and philosophies can only help us to begint o understand ourselves and the world around us. You have to put faith in yourself. You have to know that you are doing what's best for you. I wrestle with this everyday, trying desperately to conquer the other side of me that wants to believe everyone but myself.
In my heart I really believe UK is where I am suppose to be. I am going to follow my heart, are you?
I have 2 more things to address before I let you slip back into reality. I have a lovely note to Fallon.
Dear Bunny/Neuna(pronounced Noo-Nuh),
Your note once again was boring. I can't believe it is so hard for you to try and change your style of writing thats so funny to me. I hope I remember to meet you tomorrow and give you Cole's necklace thing. I know you didn't say anything, I promise I trust you 100%. After I read your note I felt bad for not going to get food, you could have told me. It's just I was going to talk to...well you know. I love how in your note your all like ohh J I like him so much and then you get in my car and are like I think we're through. You need to pick one! Im going to be really sad when the icy place closes for the rest of the year :(. Im sorry I know my note is rather boring too. Oh and if you want a ride my car will be a little closer to school since iM getting there earlier so just let me know if you want to or not when I meet you tomorrow.
I love you!!
Finally I want to post what I believe is the Class of '09 Song. I think it really sums up what/who we are. It talks about celebrating and overcoming. Making it through. Although we have 168 days to go I think this is going to be my song for the Class of '09, enjoy.
Change: Taylor Swift
It's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted
again, you know it's all the same
Another time and place
Repeating history your getting sick of it.
But I believe in whatever you do
And I'll do anything
To see it through
Because these things
Will change, we can feel it now
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution
That's how we'll come
Who we're supposed to be
We'll sing hallelujah We'll sing hallelujah Oh
So you've been out numbered
Raided, out cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
You're getting stronger now find things they never found
They might be better but we're faster
And never scared
You can walk away say that we don't need this
There's something in your eyes says we can beat this
Because these things will change we can feel it now
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution it's how we'll become who we're
We'll sing hallelujah We'll sing hallelujah Oh
Tonight we're standing on our feet to fight for what we worked
For all these years the battle of long it's the fight of our lives
We'll stand up champions tonight
And it's the night things changed
We can see it now these walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It's a revolution throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in
We'll sing hallelujah We'll sang hallelujah
Hallelujah
I want to make one note on the previous blog. Someone suggested today that I should be titles agnostic, but that would mean I believe in a higher power but don't worship it. I don't even know if I believe there is a "higher power" so I would like to be called neither atheist nor agnostic...I think the word confused will fit. Maybe I should just make a new word for all the people like me out there, because I know I can't be the only one to ever feel this way and go through this kind of experience.
Homework is beginning it's consumption of my life. I have quite a bit to read tonight as well as a quiz everyday for the next week. Then Im sure many tests will come. I think I have enough of a challenge without killing myself, but I must say I don't have all that much slack that you would expect for a senior.
I am counting down the days, there are 168 of them left HOORAH!
In Grey's Anatomy Meredith Grey does a voiceover saying "I don’t know why we put things off, but if I had to guess, I’d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure. Fear of pain. Fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, because what if you’re wrong? What if you make a mistake you can’t undo? Whatever it is we're afraid of, one thing holds true: that by the time the pain of not doing the thing gets worse than the fear of doing it, it can feel like we're carrying around a giant tumor."
You're probably wondering why in the world I would quote that. It is because I believe it to be truth. Humans are naturally and instinctively driven by fear. Sometimes it is a good fear that motivates us. Like fear of heart disease if we gain anymore weight, so we beginning excercising. There's also many unhealthy fears. Fear of failure. Perfectionist's, like myself, almost always live with a fear of this. Because of this in many cases and situations we don't try. We don't try to become an astronaut because we think we would make a better teacher or that we aren't good enough to get in law school so why bother.
The fear that consumes most seniors at one point or another during their senior year is the fear of making a decision. Ali, my wise friend, noted that the decision of your choice of continuing education impacts almost everything for the rest of your life. It can depend on what you make, what jobs are available to you, what opportunities you have, your networking, your spouse, your kids, where you will live, all of this and more. Just because of where you decided to study for college. I don't know about you but that is a bit overwhelming. The thing is we have to trust our gut. We have to wholeheartedly believe we made the right decision in which ever we choose because if we don't we begin to look for reasons why we shouldn't have gone with this. We begin to compare it to where we could have been. We wonder what our lives would be like if only we had chosen the other school.
I have a hard time with this myself, seeing as I have never been a person to really just go with my gut but I am growing up and I need to do more of that. People with dissapoint you again and again, religion may come up short, and philosophies can only help us to begint o understand ourselves and the world around us. You have to put faith in yourself. You have to know that you are doing what's best for you. I wrestle with this everyday, trying desperately to conquer the other side of me that wants to believe everyone but myself.
In my heart I really believe UK is where I am suppose to be. I am going to follow my heart, are you?
I have 2 more things to address before I let you slip back into reality. I have a lovely note to Fallon.
Dear Bunny/Neuna(pronounced Noo-Nuh),
Your note once again was boring. I can't believe it is so hard for you to try and change your style of writing thats so funny to me. I hope I remember to meet you tomorrow and give you Cole's necklace thing. I know you didn't say anything, I promise I trust you 100%. After I read your note I felt bad for not going to get food, you could have told me. It's just I was going to talk to...well you know. I love how in your note your all like ohh J I like him so much and then you get in my car and are like I think we're through. You need to pick one! Im going to be really sad when the icy place closes for the rest of the year :(. Im sorry I know my note is rather boring too. Oh and if you want a ride my car will be a little closer to school since iM getting there earlier so just let me know if you want to or not when I meet you tomorrow.
I love you!!
Finally I want to post what I believe is the Class of '09 Song. I think it really sums up what/who we are. It talks about celebrating and overcoming. Making it through. Although we have 168 days to go I think this is going to be my song for the Class of '09, enjoy.
Change: Taylor Swift
It's a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted
again, you know it's all the same
Another time and place
Repeating history your getting sick of it.
But I believe in whatever you do
And I'll do anything
To see it through
Because these things
Will change, we can feel it now
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution
That's how we'll come
Who we're supposed to be
We'll sing hallelujah We'll sing hallelujah Oh
So you've been out numbered
Raided, out cornered
It's hard to fight when the fight ain't fair
You're getting stronger now find things they never found
They might be better but we're faster
And never scared
You can walk away say that we don't need this
There's something in your eyes says we can beat this
Because these things will change we can feel it now
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It's a revolution it's how we'll become who we're
We'll sing hallelujah We'll sing hallelujah Oh
Tonight we're standing on our feet to fight for what we worked
For all these years the battle of long it's the fight of our lives
We'll stand up champions tonight
And it's the night things changed
We can see it now these walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It's a revolution throw your hands up
Cause we never gave in
We'll sing hallelujah We'll sang hallelujah
Hallelujah
8.10.2008
Clarity
Apparently this is something I have to say. I hate that things have been misinterpreted but since they have been I suppose I will clarify things.
I have not "declared my atheism". That is the concensus of what I have said on here about my religious beliefs.
I am just at a place of uncertainty in my life, thats not to say that I don't believe, I just am not sure.
Some of you will argue you if you don't know if you believe than you're an atheist but an atheist is someone who rejects religion and doesn't care. I do care and it's not that I'm neccessarily rejecting it I am just not embracing it because of the uncertainty I am experiencing.
I hate that I am writing a blog on this topic along but some of the readers who have stumbled onto my page, interpretted it for themselves and shared.
So I thought you all should know that that is where I am. I don't want or need to be judged. This is a personal subject matter, in which, I have to figure out for myself.
Thanks,
xoabbyt.
I have not "declared my atheism". That is the concensus of what I have said on here about my religious beliefs.
I am just at a place of uncertainty in my life, thats not to say that I don't believe, I just am not sure.
Some of you will argue you if you don't know if you believe than you're an atheist but an atheist is someone who rejects religion and doesn't care. I do care and it's not that I'm neccessarily rejecting it I am just not embracing it because of the uncertainty I am experiencing.
I hate that I am writing a blog on this topic along but some of the readers who have stumbled onto my page, interpretted it for themselves and shared.
So I thought you all should know that that is where I am. I don't want or need to be judged. This is a personal subject matter, in which, I have to figure out for myself.
Thanks,
xoabbyt.
8.09.2008
Life's Q&A
Well I have officially survived a week of my senior year. I wish it was the last week of school though. I have exactly 169 school days left. Is it sad that I am counting? I am just so ready for my college experience. I would love to rush and be in a sorrority, there's just something so enticing about it. No, not the parties and alcohol--that's not really my scene--but the idea of that kind of bond, that sisterhood just really makes me want to be apart of a tradition like that. Unless I am rejected, which I hope to dear life I am not, I am pretty positive about UK. It just seems to be a real fit for me. I could go on and on about this subject, and maybe one blog I will but just not right now. Sorry for all you so eager to read nothing but pages about my love for UK.
My cousin, who is more like my sister, is pretty set on WKU. I am upset that we probably won't end up together but she will have to come home to Lexington sometime and when she does we will most definitely spend some quality time together. She has been my rock through so much. During all of this college madness she has helped to hold me accountable and really made me question my logic. This once again is something I could write pages about, so I won't bore you. I will just say she is my sister, my best friend, and my hero. I don't really know where or who I'd be without her.
Even though the school year is just beginning homework has already been coming my way. I have quizzes and tests next week. It's going to be a challenging year, but I have a feeling it will also be very rewarding. I am stepping out of my comfort zone in many ways to really get the full high school experience, mine has always been slightly atypical. I really enjoy my teachers this year. They are all really wonderful instructors and I know they are going to teach me so much. I am actually looking forward to learning this year. I think this is the first year where everything is not going to feel like a review. It's the real deal, it's new, it's a challenge, an adventure.
In English we are doing this really long author project and I picked J.D. Salinger. His most notable work is Catcher in the Rye. I have started reading it and I really enjoy it. I am really impressed by the protagonist, Holden Caufield. He just has the voice, this undeniable presence and identity that steals your attention, drawing you deeper and deeper into the pages. It's really remarkable actually. I look forward to finishing it and getting to read some of his shorter works. He wrote many short stories and I can only choose 5-7 so it will be tough deciding. I think Salinger has such a unique style. He really create his story from the first word of the first page.
I know this blog, like all of my blogs, is really unrelated and random. I apologize and now continue.
I am so excited for my high schools football team to start this season. I got into football last year while I was gone to the academy and so now I want to go and cheer my school on. I also may attend my first school dance this year. I just have never really had the urge to go all that much.
I was thinking about dreams the other night right before I fell asleep. It was so unusual. I can remember this one dream I had the night before I went to disneyworld for the first time when I was five. I can remember at least one image from every dream I have had. I don't know why but I can. I usually have 2 or 3 dreams a week, I am glad I do. I think I sleep better when I have them.
I saw the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 yesterday, I liked it but I wasn't blown over by it. I think it could have had more action, more comedy, and better transitions. Tonight I am going to watch Jr. Miss. I am so nervous to see who will win. There are only a few girls that Im not really supporting but otherwise I am really unbiased as to who wins. I dont know if thats the right word choice but Im going with it.
Fallon and I hung out again yesterday. It was so much fun. We came to my house and were being dumb as usual. Fallon started doing this real creepy bunny look with like this snake thing( how the slither there tongue out), it was scaring me so bad. We had this chase around the house until I locked her out. She sat in my car for a while writing me this lovely note and then we came back in. There was a lot more to it but its hard to explain. We don't fight, like I don't know if we can. We are so much a like its crazy. I nicknamed her bunny now, because her creepy face that she makes. She wrote me this note in class cause she got bored so I thought, hey I'll just write her on here:
Dear Bunny/Casey-Adrian lover,
You are amazing. I can't believe we get along so well. I hope your having fun with your mom tonight while shes in town. I also hope your legs arent hurting you from running. You note made me happy, I would love more notes :). I can't believe how many secrets you know. TOO MANY. I have some boy news for you, so lets chat soon. I hope your enjoying having internet on your laptop, your probably reading this relaxed in your bathtub right now. Hope you don't drop your laptop. Oh and Jaylen is sooo not cute. Mmk so like I said yesterday you're like my little sister so please don't settle for any punk. You deserve the best.
I love you!!
There you have it fallon, you have your own shout out.
I think that about covers everything, I can't immagine how long this blog is going to be. Sorry if I bored you. My life is not the most interesting to live, I'm sure it's not much more interesting on paper, well electronic paper, aka the internet. Okay so I'm shutting up now. Have a great weekend.
xoabbyt.
My cousin, who is more like my sister, is pretty set on WKU. I am upset that we probably won't end up together but she will have to come home to Lexington sometime and when she does we will most definitely spend some quality time together. She has been my rock through so much. During all of this college madness she has helped to hold me accountable and really made me question my logic. This once again is something I could write pages about, so I won't bore you. I will just say she is my sister, my best friend, and my hero. I don't really know where or who I'd be without her.
Even though the school year is just beginning homework has already been coming my way. I have quizzes and tests next week. It's going to be a challenging year, but I have a feeling it will also be very rewarding. I am stepping out of my comfort zone in many ways to really get the full high school experience, mine has always been slightly atypical. I really enjoy my teachers this year. They are all really wonderful instructors and I know they are going to teach me so much. I am actually looking forward to learning this year. I think this is the first year where everything is not going to feel like a review. It's the real deal, it's new, it's a challenge, an adventure.
In English we are doing this really long author project and I picked J.D. Salinger. His most notable work is Catcher in the Rye. I have started reading it and I really enjoy it. I am really impressed by the protagonist, Holden Caufield. He just has the voice, this undeniable presence and identity that steals your attention, drawing you deeper and deeper into the pages. It's really remarkable actually. I look forward to finishing it and getting to read some of his shorter works. He wrote many short stories and I can only choose 5-7 so it will be tough deciding. I think Salinger has such a unique style. He really create his story from the first word of the first page.
I know this blog, like all of my blogs, is really unrelated and random. I apologize and now continue.
I am so excited for my high schools football team to start this season. I got into football last year while I was gone to the academy and so now I want to go and cheer my school on. I also may attend my first school dance this year. I just have never really had the urge to go all that much.
I was thinking about dreams the other night right before I fell asleep. It was so unusual. I can remember this one dream I had the night before I went to disneyworld for the first time when I was five. I can remember at least one image from every dream I have had. I don't know why but I can. I usually have 2 or 3 dreams a week, I am glad I do. I think I sleep better when I have them.
I saw the Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 yesterday, I liked it but I wasn't blown over by it. I think it could have had more action, more comedy, and better transitions. Tonight I am going to watch Jr. Miss. I am so nervous to see who will win. There are only a few girls that Im not really supporting but otherwise I am really unbiased as to who wins. I dont know if thats the right word choice but Im going with it.
Fallon and I hung out again yesterday. It was so much fun. We came to my house and were being dumb as usual. Fallon started doing this real creepy bunny look with like this snake thing( how the slither there tongue out), it was scaring me so bad. We had this chase around the house until I locked her out. She sat in my car for a while writing me this lovely note and then we came back in. There was a lot more to it but its hard to explain. We don't fight, like I don't know if we can. We are so much a like its crazy. I nicknamed her bunny now, because her creepy face that she makes. She wrote me this note in class cause she got bored so I thought, hey I'll just write her on here:
Dear Bunny/Casey-Adrian lover,
You are amazing. I can't believe we get along so well. I hope your having fun with your mom tonight while shes in town. I also hope your legs arent hurting you from running. You note made me happy, I would love more notes :). I can't believe how many secrets you know. TOO MANY. I have some boy news for you, so lets chat soon. I hope your enjoying having internet on your laptop, your probably reading this relaxed in your bathtub right now. Hope you don't drop your laptop. Oh and Jaylen is sooo not cute. Mmk so like I said yesterday you're like my little sister so please don't settle for any punk. You deserve the best.
I love you!!
There you have it fallon, you have your own shout out.
I think that about covers everything, I can't immagine how long this blog is going to be. Sorry if I bored you. My life is not the most interesting to live, I'm sure it's not much more interesting on paper, well electronic paper, aka the internet. Okay so I'm shutting up now. Have a great weekend.
xoabbyt.
8.07.2008
Growing Pains
School is still going pretty well. I am so glad I switched into anatomy--it's so great! I have had a little homework, but not tonight thankfully! Today in English we had to write for 7 minutes straight. We had to start with When I write I... I had no idea what to wrote so I wrote just as randomly as I do on here. I told them...it...the paper...about all of you many readers haha. No, but seriously I said I like to write by blogging. Writing in pencil just isn't practical, my hand can't keep up...now my fingers their a whole different story. I had the worst hand cramps you can possibly immagine. You probably shouldn't say this on a blog, but right about now I'm having some pretty bad other monthly cramps.
So today in the hall this morning I was walking by and I saw my friend B. She's just a freshman this year. She gave me this look, that kind of look where you know something is wrong. So I said "B, What's up? Are you okay?' She stared for a second and then said yes. I said "Really?" Tears welled a little in her eyes then she came up to me and hugged me for a while and just said "Abby, I hate it here!" I told her I would give her a call tonight to see what's going on and maybe see if I can help.
Senior year is off to a good start for me. I am leaning heavily toward UK. My cousin, who is more like my sister, is not. She and I are super close. She had been town between UK and WKU as well. She went to tour WKU yesterday and is now head over heels. I'm not going to lie, the thought of being away from her for 4 years of college makes me want to cry. She moved away about a 1 1/2 ago. It kills me! I get to go see her in a couple of weeks though, I'm super excited. I really want her to be happy with her decision, but I'd like to get to see her everyday. I hope from now until about Dec. she'll really be considering each of them, unbiased. I don't think I'm likely to switch but you never know. I love her so much, and she will probably awe when she reads all of this but I just really hate the distance.
I know you have to grow up and grow apart sometime but it's not that we would lose our relationship, because we are family, but losing a frienship would be worse. That's like just saying your brother is your brother without being close to him. We have always been close so this just kind of breaks my heart. When we were on the phone just a few minutes ago discussing this I literally was about to cry and yet I was so angry. I just felt like there was nothing I could do, that this cause was hopeless. Things always fall into the right place eventually.
So remember my mention of Fallon in the last blog? Yeah well we're getting pretty tight.I hardly get to see her at school but I take her home most days. I remember riding the bus..I couldn't stand it. I absolutely hated it. Today we went to wendys and then went to my house to eat it. It's funny because Fallon hates girls. Like she doesn't like to have many as friends so the fact that she even likes me for a friend is odd. We have never fought or anything. We hung out at my house laughing and doing whatever. Talking about anything and everything. Then we went to get shaved ice. We went to Nick's because Fallon has a huge crush on Casey. We sat in my car in the parking lot listening to rap and dancing. All of the boys there were checking us out, it was so funny. Then I went to take her to her house and we had a great mixed cd in. When Taylor Swift's should of said no song came on we made up these movements and were cracking up laughing. I impersonated a screamo band and that just added to the laughter. Then we danced to I wanna love you. We swear we'll make youtube videos of it. Some how in the midst of that we ended up making up this really random handshake thing. It was the best therapy ever. I drove home smiling the whole way. I think I could hangout with her for days on end and not get sick of it. I may have a best friend :).
My dad is bringing home Penn Station--best place in the world to eat--so I think that sums it all up.
Growing up is tough and sucks. 16 to 25 are the most critical years of your life. You become who you will be for the rest of your life. You decide your morals, your political party, your relgious beliefs, your sexuality, your husband, your dreams, your job, and so much more. I'm at the beginning of creating myself and it is like being pinned between a rock and a hard place. Here's to hoping it all turns of for the best.
xoabbyt.
So today in the hall this morning I was walking by and I saw my friend B. She's just a freshman this year. She gave me this look, that kind of look where you know something is wrong. So I said "B, What's up? Are you okay?' She stared for a second and then said yes. I said "Really?" Tears welled a little in her eyes then she came up to me and hugged me for a while and just said "Abby, I hate it here!" I told her I would give her a call tonight to see what's going on and maybe see if I can help.
Senior year is off to a good start for me. I am leaning heavily toward UK. My cousin, who is more like my sister, is not. She and I are super close. She had been town between UK and WKU as well. She went to tour WKU yesterday and is now head over heels. I'm not going to lie, the thought of being away from her for 4 years of college makes me want to cry. She moved away about a 1 1/2 ago. It kills me! I get to go see her in a couple of weeks though, I'm super excited. I really want her to be happy with her decision, but I'd like to get to see her everyday. I hope from now until about Dec. she'll really be considering each of them, unbiased. I don't think I'm likely to switch but you never know. I love her so much, and she will probably awe when she reads all of this but I just really hate the distance.
I know you have to grow up and grow apart sometime but it's not that we would lose our relationship, because we are family, but losing a frienship would be worse. That's like just saying your brother is your brother without being close to him. We have always been close so this just kind of breaks my heart. When we were on the phone just a few minutes ago discussing this I literally was about to cry and yet I was so angry. I just felt like there was nothing I could do, that this cause was hopeless. Things always fall into the right place eventually.
So remember my mention of Fallon in the last blog? Yeah well we're getting pretty tight.I hardly get to see her at school but I take her home most days. I remember riding the bus..I couldn't stand it. I absolutely hated it. Today we went to wendys and then went to my house to eat it. It's funny because Fallon hates girls. Like she doesn't like to have many as friends so the fact that she even likes me for a friend is odd. We have never fought or anything. We hung out at my house laughing and doing whatever. Talking about anything and everything. Then we went to get shaved ice. We went to Nick's because Fallon has a huge crush on Casey. We sat in my car in the parking lot listening to rap and dancing. All of the boys there were checking us out, it was so funny. Then I went to take her to her house and we had a great mixed cd in. When Taylor Swift's should of said no song came on we made up these movements and were cracking up laughing. I impersonated a screamo band and that just added to the laughter. Then we danced to I wanna love you. We swear we'll make youtube videos of it. Some how in the midst of that we ended up making up this really random handshake thing. It was the best therapy ever. I drove home smiling the whole way. I think I could hangout with her for days on end and not get sick of it. I may have a best friend :).
My dad is bringing home Penn Station--best place in the world to eat--so I think that sums it all up.
Growing up is tough and sucks. 16 to 25 are the most critical years of your life. You become who you will be for the rest of your life. You decide your morals, your political party, your relgious beliefs, your sexuality, your husband, your dreams, your job, and so much more. I'm at the beginning of creating myself and it is like being pinned between a rock and a hard place. Here's to hoping it all turns of for the best.
xoabbyt.
8.05.2008
CalcKILLus
My first day of my Senior year of High School...oh the joys. Today was super dumb. When I got to school I got to park in reserved, which is so much closer to the door. I saw some friends and we sat in the car jamming out to music until the bell was about to ring.
I sat in homeroom for almost an hour, doing nothing as usual. Our homeroom was 29 to begin with now we have 16. Everyone has their own locker we have that few of people.
Next we had a short 1st period which all we did was listen to the teacher talk on and on. This was Art 1 so I mean really there can't be that much to really talk about.
Onto Ap English 4, well the teacher was awesome. Mrs. Williams was hillarious and very nice. I think I'll really enjoy her, as for the class I'm still a bit wary of it. I am taking part 1 and part 2 at the same time back to back so it gets really very confusing. I think it will make me a much better writer though. I know I make lots of grammatical as well as spelling errors on here. I don't really mind when I'm trying to just get things out of my head.
I went to the dreaded Calculus for my 4th period(which happens to be a block). We got to eat first lunch, oh how I missed school food (I hope you caught the hint of sarcasm). When we got back to class he gave us work to get started on. One of the worksheets wasn't so bad you typed something in your calculator, it gave you a picture, you draw the picture. The second one was a lot more challenging. It was suppose to be review, I made it through 6 problems only because I kept asking for help. He told us that tomorrow we would receive a large packet. I shuddered at the thought so...
My 5th period I am my homeroom teacher's teacher aide. I told her about my last class and how I would love to get out of there. I went to my counselor told her how I though I might just die and low-and-behold she changed my schedule. It also my conflict with application process stuff. I got the class I wanted Anatomy, until christmas, and then Foods & Nuitrition. I am looking really forward to both of them. I think they will be 10x better than calculus.
As for 6th we already began on a packet as well. I have Organic Chemistry and on the first day we had a substitute. I was kind of dissapointed but it's alright. There are only 9 people in that class so it's really fun. 4 girls 5 boys.
That was my first day of senior year, exciting I know?
As for my senior pictures I took yesterday I think they went well. I hope he does a lovely editing job so they turn out looking wonderful. I get to see them in a week! My friend Am's turned out awesome! I hope mine look as good.
I don't know if I had discussed with all you dedicated readers the best friend delema but there is on or was. I mean I have really close friends but not that BEST friend that you call for everything. I think Taryn, Shelby, and Ali are my closest friends but Fallon is quickly becoming one as well. Although we just met this summer she is so much fun to be around. We went to sonic after school today, it was awesome. I can't believe how alike we are.
As for other rants...
I am trying to figure out what clubs to join.
I hate having homework the very first day.
I still dont have my new debit card.
I think my new beliefs may soon be out of the woodwork.
I am super excited for seeing Sisterhood of the travelling pants 2 with my mom this friday and the Jr. Miss pagent on saturday.
I think thats about it so as for me I've got homework to get started on.
xoabby t.
I sat in homeroom for almost an hour, doing nothing as usual. Our homeroom was 29 to begin with now we have 16. Everyone has their own locker we have that few of people.
Next we had a short 1st period which all we did was listen to the teacher talk on and on. This was Art 1 so I mean really there can't be that much to really talk about.
Onto Ap English 4, well the teacher was awesome. Mrs. Williams was hillarious and very nice. I think I'll really enjoy her, as for the class I'm still a bit wary of it. I am taking part 1 and part 2 at the same time back to back so it gets really very confusing. I think it will make me a much better writer though. I know I make lots of grammatical as well as spelling errors on here. I don't really mind when I'm trying to just get things out of my head.
I went to the dreaded Calculus for my 4th period(which happens to be a block). We got to eat first lunch, oh how I missed school food (I hope you caught the hint of sarcasm). When we got back to class he gave us work to get started on. One of the worksheets wasn't so bad you typed something in your calculator, it gave you a picture, you draw the picture. The second one was a lot more challenging. It was suppose to be review, I made it through 6 problems only because I kept asking for help. He told us that tomorrow we would receive a large packet. I shuddered at the thought so...
My 5th period I am my homeroom teacher's teacher aide. I told her about my last class and how I would love to get out of there. I went to my counselor told her how I though I might just die and low-and-behold she changed my schedule. It also my conflict with application process stuff. I got the class I wanted Anatomy, until christmas, and then Foods & Nuitrition. I am looking really forward to both of them. I think they will be 10x better than calculus.
As for 6th we already began on a packet as well. I have Organic Chemistry and on the first day we had a substitute. I was kind of dissapointed but it's alright. There are only 9 people in that class so it's really fun. 4 girls 5 boys.
That was my first day of senior year, exciting I know?
As for my senior pictures I took yesterday I think they went well. I hope he does a lovely editing job so they turn out looking wonderful. I get to see them in a week! My friend Am's turned out awesome! I hope mine look as good.
I don't know if I had discussed with all you dedicated readers the best friend delema but there is on or was. I mean I have really close friends but not that BEST friend that you call for everything. I think Taryn, Shelby, and Ali are my closest friends but Fallon is quickly becoming one as well. Although we just met this summer she is so much fun to be around. We went to sonic after school today, it was awesome. I can't believe how alike we are.
As for other rants...
I am trying to figure out what clubs to join.
I hate having homework the very first day.
I still dont have my new debit card.
I think my new beliefs may soon be out of the woodwork.
I am super excited for seeing Sisterhood of the travelling pants 2 with my mom this friday and the Jr. Miss pagent on saturday.
I think thats about it so as for me I've got homework to get started on.
xoabby t.
8.03.2008
Oh My Jonas
My little adventure was great. I spent the last 24 hours in a town about an hour and half away. When I got there I stopped by coldstone where a firend of mine works, it was so great getting to see her again. We practically have matching hair cuts now.
Then I went to O'Charley's, a great restaurant, and met up with some more of my friends. I hadn't seen any of them since april. It was so great! I ordered a steak for the second night in a row. What can I say, I'm a big fan of steak! Afterwards me and my friend J, we went on an ALE 8 hunt. Ale 8 is the softdrink of KY. They only carry it in certain gas stations. After the 4th try we found it. I was so excited. Then we went to this great donut place and got some donuts.
We went to her house to crash for the night but we stayed up for a good long while talking. It turned into a huge cry-fest. I had told her that I wasn't really sure where I stand on religion right now. I don't think I consider myself a christian or anything right now. I am working on whether or not I even believe there is a God. It's a complicated situation, I don't feel like blogging the rest of the time about it. It broke her heart to know that's where I was at though.
When we got up it was 1 this afternoon, we had stayed up really late (3:30 am). We went to this great japanese place. It's a cheap one too! The food was amazing. The terakyi chicken was fabulous but so were the steamed veggies. We got starbucks and went to see another friend of ours. Later we went back to her house and burned so great music. I burned 3 mixed cds plus the Camp Rock sountrack, Flyleaf, and The Jonas Brothers (Joe is my man...hands off!) Although I do think Nick has the better voice. This another subject I could go on forever about...oh Jonas Brothers--they make my heart smile, as cliche that sounds.
My drive home I was super tired. I am getting ready for senior pictures tomorrow and school on tuesday. Its my last first day. I am kind of nervous. I am working on getting everything together and doing everything that needs to be done within the next day. AHHH!
So that's whats been going on, not to interesting I suppose. I guess by Wednesday there will be more to say.
If you haven't had the pleasure of meeting, and by meeting I mean hearing, the Jonas Brothers you should really get on that.
xoabby t.
Then I went to O'Charley's, a great restaurant, and met up with some more of my friends. I hadn't seen any of them since april. It was so great! I ordered a steak for the second night in a row. What can I say, I'm a big fan of steak! Afterwards me and my friend J, we went on an ALE 8 hunt. Ale 8 is the softdrink of KY. They only carry it in certain gas stations. After the 4th try we found it. I was so excited. Then we went to this great donut place and got some donuts.
We went to her house to crash for the night but we stayed up for a good long while talking. It turned into a huge cry-fest. I had told her that I wasn't really sure where I stand on religion right now. I don't think I consider myself a christian or anything right now. I am working on whether or not I even believe there is a God. It's a complicated situation, I don't feel like blogging the rest of the time about it. It broke her heart to know that's where I was at though.
When we got up it was 1 this afternoon, we had stayed up really late (3:30 am). We went to this great japanese place. It's a cheap one too! The food was amazing. The terakyi chicken was fabulous but so were the steamed veggies. We got starbucks and went to see another friend of ours. Later we went back to her house and burned so great music. I burned 3 mixed cds plus the Camp Rock sountrack, Flyleaf, and The Jonas Brothers (Joe is my man...hands off!) Although I do think Nick has the better voice. This another subject I could go on forever about...oh Jonas Brothers--they make my heart smile, as cliche that sounds.
My drive home I was super tired. I am getting ready for senior pictures tomorrow and school on tuesday. Its my last first day. I am kind of nervous. I am working on getting everything together and doing everything that needs to be done within the next day. AHHH!
So that's whats been going on, not to interesting I suppose. I guess by Wednesday there will be more to say.
If you haven't had the pleasure of meeting, and by meeting I mean hearing, the Jonas Brothers you should really get on that.
xoabby t.
8.02.2008
Leggo my Eggo
Today has been pretty normal...
Woke up late, watched episodes of Brothers and sisters, then went to my grandparents. My brother and sister-in-law were out there. I jump at every chance I get to see them now. I ate some awesome cantelope and corn on the cob best 2 summer foods ever.
For the first time in my life my brother and I threw the football around in the back yard. We played for a good 20 or 30 minutes in the miserable heat. He said I had a really good arm, I was so excited. At the very end he went down to hike the ball and I caught it. I made a full on sprint to the other side of the yard, slammed the ball down, and yelled "TOUCHDOWN!!!" Not to mention I did my touchdown dance. It was so much fun. I never played with him much as a kid since we were close to 8 years apart so it's nice to now.
I came home and there was my dad. He had been out picking corn and shucking it all day. My mom had given me permission to go stay the night down in another town with my friends who I hadnt seen since april. When I told him I was going he was upset that I hadnt gotten his permission and said I couldnt go. Tears immeadiately welled in my eyes. He started saying "Now don't get theatrical on me." He reassured me he was just joking, but in a very unreassured voice. I turned to walk in the house and walked up stairs to take my shower I was sobbing hysterically. Even in the shower I stepped in, put the water on ice cold, turn the radio up loud and just sobbed. I havent really cried just to cry in a long time. I though maybe something was wrong but then I knew my body just had a lot of emotion to release. It felt so good. I was using this tea tree shampoo and the aroma began to calm me down and I just felt a million times better. My chest feels so clear and breathing seems easier than ever. I hated that I felt like my dad had caused that but after I realized that wasnt so I forgave myself and just let myself cry as much as I need.
ps once I was done crying, still in the shower, I danced :)
Now I am going to pack up and head down to see my friends for the night.
If you ever begin to cry, sometimes its just best to let the tears come as they may.
xoabby t.
Woke up late, watched episodes of Brothers and sisters, then went to my grandparents. My brother and sister-in-law were out there. I jump at every chance I get to see them now. I ate some awesome cantelope and corn on the cob best 2 summer foods ever.
For the first time in my life my brother and I threw the football around in the back yard. We played for a good 20 or 30 minutes in the miserable heat. He said I had a really good arm, I was so excited. At the very end he went down to hike the ball and I caught it. I made a full on sprint to the other side of the yard, slammed the ball down, and yelled "TOUCHDOWN!!!" Not to mention I did my touchdown dance. It was so much fun. I never played with him much as a kid since we were close to 8 years apart so it's nice to now.
I came home and there was my dad. He had been out picking corn and shucking it all day. My mom had given me permission to go stay the night down in another town with my friends who I hadnt seen since april. When I told him I was going he was upset that I hadnt gotten his permission and said I couldnt go. Tears immeadiately welled in my eyes. He started saying "Now don't get theatrical on me." He reassured me he was just joking, but in a very unreassured voice. I turned to walk in the house and walked up stairs to take my shower I was sobbing hysterically. Even in the shower I stepped in, put the water on ice cold, turn the radio up loud and just sobbed. I havent really cried just to cry in a long time. I though maybe something was wrong but then I knew my body just had a lot of emotion to release. It felt so good. I was using this tea tree shampoo and the aroma began to calm me down and I just felt a million times better. My chest feels so clear and breathing seems easier than ever. I hated that I felt like my dad had caused that but after I realized that wasnt so I forgave myself and just let myself cry as much as I need.
ps once I was done crying, still in the shower, I danced :)
Now I am going to pack up and head down to see my friends for the night.
If you ever begin to cry, sometimes its just best to let the tears come as they may.
xoabby t.
7.31.2008
Clickable Sharpies
So yes I know my blog titles relate nothing to the subject I write about but I like to keep it interesting somehow for all you readers. 3 people view this place a week, I mean it's pretty busy.
Okay, excuse me for the sarcasm. I should be thanking anyone who takes the time to read this period. I still haven't quite figured out why anyone would. Most of it probably doesn't intrest you, let alone make sense.
Today was a weird day, off beat I guess you could say. I slept the latest I have all summer--3 pm but I gues when you stay up until 6 am thats what happens. I didn't really do much I wachted parental control and a new Jon and Kate plus 8 but thats about it. Around 5 I got a call, my friend Dominic wanted to hangout. I have hardly seen him this summer but I was like okay sure.
We went down to the river front out on the docks and skipped rocks. After that we went to En El Rio, Id never been and I was actually pretty impressed with it. I got over my deathly fear of shredded lettuce. Bet you didn't know that about me. I have been afraid of it for forever. My sister-in-law's best friend was serving us and I ordered my tacos without but I didnt want to make her feel bad so I just ate it. No more fear of shredded lettuce for me :).
We went to DQ and got blizzards afterwards. Most of this he paid for by the way. He kept making comments about oh a romantic table at dinner and the word date but I never figured out if it was a date or not. He's pretty cool, he is a year and half younger than me but when he's not being dumb he's actually quite mature. Plus he's a diehard UK fan and he's hilarious. Pretty cute too not going to lie. I'm going to be really embarassed if he read this though. Hopefully he won't find it out here in cyber space.
I got this new song for my myspace profile called Just Dance by Lady Gaga you should really check that out. Make next blog Ill make a playlist of songs for you to check out. Im pretty proud of my music taste. I enjoy mainstream, but not overplayed. I usually find obscure bands and get hooked into them. I like a little bit of every genre. I dont enjoy blues or metal very much but there are a few songs in each of those genres that evem I appreciate. Music is life.
Hmm what else what else? I am not looking forward to school starting at all. Every day brings it closer and closer. One of these days I should discuss religion on here and politics. I bet that would raise some controversy, especially for my wise friend Ali. She and I seem to butt heads on every subject immaginable. At the end of the day we still love each other. I dont throw the term best friend around a lot but I would have to say she definitely is mine. I mean we live 200 miles away, for now, but I talk to her more than anyone else. I really hope we end up at the same school. Me and her go way back. That's a blog idea too. An entire blog about me and Ali growing up and getting to where we are now.
I think Im going to add some lists for you guys. Probably favorite songs of the moment and maybe good books. Movie's don't change that often and I dont mess around on youtube enough to have any favorite videos.
This is going to be a random outburst but I really dislike Miley Cyrus. I dont want to explain but I think shes an awful role model and singer so lets leave it at that.
xoabby t.
Okay, excuse me for the sarcasm. I should be thanking anyone who takes the time to read this period. I still haven't quite figured out why anyone would. Most of it probably doesn't intrest you, let alone make sense.
Today was a weird day, off beat I guess you could say. I slept the latest I have all summer--3 pm but I gues when you stay up until 6 am thats what happens. I didn't really do much I wachted parental control and a new Jon and Kate plus 8 but thats about it. Around 5 I got a call, my friend Dominic wanted to hangout. I have hardly seen him this summer but I was like okay sure.
We went down to the river front out on the docks and skipped rocks. After that we went to En El Rio, Id never been and I was actually pretty impressed with it. I got over my deathly fear of shredded lettuce. Bet you didn't know that about me. I have been afraid of it for forever. My sister-in-law's best friend was serving us and I ordered my tacos without but I didnt want to make her feel bad so I just ate it. No more fear of shredded lettuce for me :).
We went to DQ and got blizzards afterwards. Most of this he paid for by the way. He kept making comments about oh a romantic table at dinner and the word date but I never figured out if it was a date or not. He's pretty cool, he is a year and half younger than me but when he's not being dumb he's actually quite mature. Plus he's a diehard UK fan and he's hilarious. Pretty cute too not going to lie. I'm going to be really embarassed if he read this though. Hopefully he won't find it out here in cyber space.
I got this new song for my myspace profile called Just Dance by Lady Gaga you should really check that out. Make next blog Ill make a playlist of songs for you to check out. Im pretty proud of my music taste. I enjoy mainstream, but not overplayed. I usually find obscure bands and get hooked into them. I like a little bit of every genre. I dont enjoy blues or metal very much but there are a few songs in each of those genres that evem I appreciate. Music is life.
Hmm what else what else? I am not looking forward to school starting at all. Every day brings it closer and closer. One of these days I should discuss religion on here and politics. I bet that would raise some controversy, especially for my wise friend Ali. She and I seem to butt heads on every subject immaginable. At the end of the day we still love each other. I dont throw the term best friend around a lot but I would have to say she definitely is mine. I mean we live 200 miles away, for now, but I talk to her more than anyone else. I really hope we end up at the same school. Me and her go way back. That's a blog idea too. An entire blog about me and Ali growing up and getting to where we are now.
I think Im going to add some lists for you guys. Probably favorite songs of the moment and maybe good books. Movie's don't change that often and I dont mess around on youtube enough to have any favorite videos.
This is going to be a random outburst but I really dislike Miley Cyrus. I dont want to explain but I think shes an awful role model and singer so lets leave it at that.
xoabby t.
7.30.2008
A Midsummer Night's Dream
Alright so... This is the new look for the blog. It's got a whole new title and even a whole new weblink to access it. I felt it was time for some change. I have had an entire summer's worth of change. This summer has been the most spontaneous summer I have ever had. When I was younger I knew I was going to the pool everyday to swim or my mom had something planned. When I hit high school I started making my summer plans in about January. I did that this year but it didn't quite workout.
I have basically thrown away who I use to be and I started over. I mean I am 17 and I have time to really figure out what I want, belive, and stand for. I had just been taking in what ever I was spoon fed. Sure I was ask the basic questions but I never really went beyond the surface...of anything. I am now diving beyond the surface of myself. Looking at past experiences and taking from them lessons to carry me into the future. I have never been good with identifying my emotions or handling them, so this summer I began working on that. So much has changed for me. My outlook of so many things I thought I valued and respected so highly have disenigrated.
I really hope my senior year turns out great. Next week I take senior pictures and Im not really all that thrilled too. Then school begins. The schedule I thought I had got tossed out like last Fall's fashion. Now it looks a little something like this:
1-Art
2/3-AP English 4
4-Calc. 1/Calc. 2
5-Teachers Aide/WWII Nazi Germany
6-Organic Chem
It will most certainly be a challenge. I really wish I had gotten to take anatomy.
I love my brother and sister-in-laws new house, its so beautiful. I am so glad they are so happy together. They are truly each others compliments. I don't think my brother could have picked a better sister-in-law for me. Since I only have a brother, this is the only extra sibling Ill get. I have the perfect big sister. No shes not perfect as in never makes a mistake but she's imperfectly perfect.
I really value and respect her. She is so wise and mature. She knows how to just have fun and kick back though too. The thing I really admire about her is the fact the she is herself all the time 100% unapologetically. She is the same in front of me, as she is in front of my family, my brother, her family, her friends, and even strangers. Just 2 nights ago we went shopping and she always talked to the cashiers so friendly. She probably made their day just be noticing they are humans too and appreciating what they do. She is a great person and I would be lucky to become half the woman she is.
So I have been teaching myself russian lately. How you might ask? Well I'll tell you. There is a great website called mango. It lets you take 50 lessons of a language and learn at least enough to get you around and through a conversation. I am on lesson 4. It is a very simple program and it sticks with you very well. They offer around 10 or 11 languages. I highly recommend it if you want to pick up some extra foreign languages. I am really enjoying it. If I keep it up I might even major in Russian.
Speaking of major...that leads to College! I am excited and terrified all at the same time.
I have my choices narrowed down to UK and WKU, two excellent schools. I probably should make a pro/con list like my wise friend Ali suggested but Ill get to it eventually. I hate applying for all the random scholarships out there. Its so boring and time consuming. I dont even know how good my chances are but I guess free money is worth a shot. Hopefully Ill make a little extra to put toward college.
There are a lot of majors I am considering but mostly: Anthropology, Dietetics, International Studies, Linguistics, Public Reltions, Political Science, Sociology, and Russian.
Others Im just merely considering: Art history, Pre-med(ob/gyn), Social Work, and Other foreign languages.
I know its a lot to think about, but they are pretty connected. Most of them work hands on with people. I love politics and cultures and languages so theres another connection.
I really hope I can do dance this year, I miss dancing a lot. I hope when I go to school I can give crew, fencing, and lacrosse a shot. I have always wanted to do those three.
I am getting better at guitar. I love playing!
If you haven't read The Secret or The Last Lecture I highly recommend it.
Sorry for thr random mass of ranting but thats whats been on my mind.
Enjoy what's left of the Summer :)
xoabbyt.
I have basically thrown away who I use to be and I started over. I mean I am 17 and I have time to really figure out what I want, belive, and stand for. I had just been taking in what ever I was spoon fed. Sure I was ask the basic questions but I never really went beyond the surface...of anything. I am now diving beyond the surface of myself. Looking at past experiences and taking from them lessons to carry me into the future. I have never been good with identifying my emotions or handling them, so this summer I began working on that. So much has changed for me. My outlook of so many things I thought I valued and respected so highly have disenigrated.
I really hope my senior year turns out great. Next week I take senior pictures and Im not really all that thrilled too. Then school begins. The schedule I thought I had got tossed out like last Fall's fashion. Now it looks a little something like this:
1-Art
2/3-AP English 4
4-Calc. 1/Calc. 2
5-Teachers Aide/WWII Nazi Germany
6-Organic Chem
It will most certainly be a challenge. I really wish I had gotten to take anatomy.
I love my brother and sister-in-laws new house, its so beautiful. I am so glad they are so happy together. They are truly each others compliments. I don't think my brother could have picked a better sister-in-law for me. Since I only have a brother, this is the only extra sibling Ill get. I have the perfect big sister. No shes not perfect as in never makes a mistake but she's imperfectly perfect.
I really value and respect her. She is so wise and mature. She knows how to just have fun and kick back though too. The thing I really admire about her is the fact the she is herself all the time 100% unapologetically. She is the same in front of me, as she is in front of my family, my brother, her family, her friends, and even strangers. Just 2 nights ago we went shopping and she always talked to the cashiers so friendly. She probably made their day just be noticing they are humans too and appreciating what they do. She is a great person and I would be lucky to become half the woman she is.
So I have been teaching myself russian lately. How you might ask? Well I'll tell you. There is a great website called mango. It lets you take 50 lessons of a language and learn at least enough to get you around and through a conversation. I am on lesson 4. It is a very simple program and it sticks with you very well. They offer around 10 or 11 languages. I highly recommend it if you want to pick up some extra foreign languages. I am really enjoying it. If I keep it up I might even major in Russian.
Speaking of major...that leads to College! I am excited and terrified all at the same time.
I have my choices narrowed down to UK and WKU, two excellent schools. I probably should make a pro/con list like my wise friend Ali suggested but Ill get to it eventually. I hate applying for all the random scholarships out there. Its so boring and time consuming. I dont even know how good my chances are but I guess free money is worth a shot. Hopefully Ill make a little extra to put toward college.
There are a lot of majors I am considering but mostly: Anthropology, Dietetics, International Studies, Linguistics, Public Reltions, Political Science, Sociology, and Russian.
Others Im just merely considering: Art history, Pre-med(ob/gyn), Social Work, and Other foreign languages.
I know its a lot to think about, but they are pretty connected. Most of them work hands on with people. I love politics and cultures and languages so theres another connection.
I really hope I can do dance this year, I miss dancing a lot. I hope when I go to school I can give crew, fencing, and lacrosse a shot. I have always wanted to do those three.
I am getting better at guitar. I love playing!
If you haven't read The Secret or The Last Lecture I highly recommend it.
Sorry for thr random mass of ranting but thats whats been on my mind.
Enjoy what's left of the Summer :)
xoabbyt.
5.14.2008
Analyze that.
Okay so Mono is really irritating me. I get so tired so easy so I can only go to school half the time, and I have so much work to catch up on. I think I am just going to have to go and tough it out. 8 days and then Im a senior WOO. I have a crazy busy summer though so we'll see if I survive. I really need to start working out more, I could lose weight so easy if I just really tried. I have been thinking about boy wayyy too much lately. I just want what we had, it was so good. God will bring me someone when the time is right I know that. Any way I just needed to vent and rant a little.
5.10.2008
Through the Looking Glass
Alright so I have been doing some thinking lately and heres what I have come up with. These are random jumbled thoughts so please forgive me. Anyways Thought 1:
-I have been thinking about the relationship I had with boy. It was basically my first "real" relationship. I met his fam, he met mine. We drove back and forth, stayed the night at each others places so forth. It was also the best relationship I have ever been in, he was so good to me. He was a true gentleman and I knew he deeply cared about me. It was also my longest, lasting for a total of 5 1/2 months. My realization is not that I want him back but that the next time I get into a relationship I want it to be able to rise to those standards and to go beyond. Those are some big shoes to fill and some high standards but I know there is a guy who can.
Thought 2
-I got mono again which bites. No really who gets mono twice, back to back. I mean seriously. Why me?
Sorry that whiny me :(.
Thought 3
-My fellow academy students, well the seniors, graduated today. They survived the whole year there. I just couldn't take it and I wanted a normal high school process, with normal expectations. I hate that I left WKU but I know this has helped me grow enormously. I am so proud of all the seniors though. They are going to do great things. To my class I know we have lost so many people but I know you guys are so close you will get through anything and everything together. To the incoming class good luck and enjoy it, it will be the time of your life mixed with hell.
Thought 4
-I keep listing the colleges on here and then 2 weeks later they change right well here Ill post the updated list again:
Xavier
WKU
University of Dayton
University of Tennessee
Union
Butler
Those are the ones Im seriously considering applying to. There was a few others but I realized they are wayy expensive or wayyy small and Im really wanting a school of atleast 4,000. Prefferably smaller than 10,000 but UT and WKU can be exceptions. I still have to visit 4 of those but Ive done quite a bit of research.
Alright I think that covers my thoughts. Me and my mono self are going to take mom out to get a pedicure. Well first we're going to shower.
I am sure I have a bazillion tons of homework waiting for me when I get back to school, I am so glad there are only like 11 days left.
Summer is going to be amazing. Ill keep you all updated as much as possible--no garuntees.
Maybe summer will bring love, here's to hoping hah Im seventeen years young I've got time to find love, to find a dream big enough, and to find what my lifes going to look like.
Here's to looking at you kid.
-I have been thinking about the relationship I had with boy. It was basically my first "real" relationship. I met his fam, he met mine. We drove back and forth, stayed the night at each others places so forth. It was also the best relationship I have ever been in, he was so good to me. He was a true gentleman and I knew he deeply cared about me. It was also my longest, lasting for a total of 5 1/2 months. My realization is not that I want him back but that the next time I get into a relationship I want it to be able to rise to those standards and to go beyond. Those are some big shoes to fill and some high standards but I know there is a guy who can.
Thought 2
-I got mono again which bites. No really who gets mono twice, back to back. I mean seriously. Why me?
Sorry that whiny me :(.
Thought 3
-My fellow academy students, well the seniors, graduated today. They survived the whole year there. I just couldn't take it and I wanted a normal high school process, with normal expectations. I hate that I left WKU but I know this has helped me grow enormously. I am so proud of all the seniors though. They are going to do great things. To my class I know we have lost so many people but I know you guys are so close you will get through anything and everything together. To the incoming class good luck and enjoy it, it will be the time of your life mixed with hell.
Thought 4
-I keep listing the colleges on here and then 2 weeks later they change right well here Ill post the updated list again:
Xavier
WKU
University of Dayton
University of Tennessee
Union
Butler
Those are the ones Im seriously considering applying to. There was a few others but I realized they are wayy expensive or wayyy small and Im really wanting a school of atleast 4,000. Prefferably smaller than 10,000 but UT and WKU can be exceptions. I still have to visit 4 of those but Ive done quite a bit of research.
Alright I think that covers my thoughts. Me and my mono self are going to take mom out to get a pedicure. Well first we're going to shower.
I am sure I have a bazillion tons of homework waiting for me when I get back to school, I am so glad there are only like 11 days left.
Summer is going to be amazing. Ill keep you all updated as much as possible--no garuntees.
Maybe summer will bring love, here's to hoping hah Im seventeen years young I've got time to find love, to find a dream big enough, and to find what my lifes going to look like.
Here's to looking at you kid.
4.21.2008
Spare Change
Alright so since March 11th, as you can imagine, a lot has happened. Boy and I broke things off because he had issues with the whole distance thing. It really hurt me at first, but what hurt even worse was going from talking every day and him being my best friend to hardly speaking. My great grandma passed away which has made things tougher, oh and I got mono. I'm over it now but it really sucked while it lasted. I am so excited for my summer it is jammed packed and crazy but it is going to be a blast. So after going on a few college visits and doing some more research my list now includes the following:
Xavier University
DePauw University
Union University
Cedarville University
Butler University
Western Kentucky University
Alternates/Back-Ups
UK
UofL
Bellarmine University
Thats what I know for now who knows how much that will change. I can't wait to take senior pics with my brother and sister-in-law it will be so much fun. Summer '08 is going to be great!
Xavier University
DePauw University
Union University
Cedarville University
Butler University
Western Kentucky University
Alternates/Back-Ups
UK
UofL
Bellarmine University
Thats what I know for now who knows how much that will change. I can't wait to take senior pics with my brother and sister-in-law it will be so much fun. Summer '08 is going to be great!
3.11.2008
Rand McNally
High School is still going really well. I scheduled my senior year and I am taking the following:
1.College Algebra/Basic Public Speaking (both at community college)
2.Honors English 4
3.Sociology
4.Theatre 1/2
5.Concert Choir
6.Teachers Aide/Rec Dance
it's not going to be oh so easy but I won't be killing myself, at least I hope not.
Spring break is going to be amazing! It starts on my birthday, March 28th, and I am having my party woo. Boy is even coming up to celebrate with me, and I am so excited. It will have been 26 days total that I'd gone without seeing him! I miss him a lot now that we're so far apart and I am the only with a car but we make it work well.
So after the party I have science olympiad regionals, I know lame but I am a nerd. Then that monday I going to BG to hang out with all my wku friends and staying until wednesday morning at which point I am driving to Lexington to see Georgetown College and my brother and sister-in-law. On thursday I'm going to Cinci to see Xavier, and then driving back to Lex, and friday I am seeing UK and Bellarmine on the way home. It's going to be great.
I can't wait for spring fling for the bcm, I will definitely be there and I can't wait.
Summer is going to be so busy but I will probably see boy as much as I get to now. I can't wait until Ben and Haley's wedding! that will be awesome.
I am still doing makeup work but the semester ends friday so I think I'll be all caught up by then.
We took the ACT today and I am praying for at least a 26 or higher Id love a 28.
Well better go do that home/make-up work!
1.College Algebra/Basic Public Speaking (both at community college)
2.Honors English 4
3.Sociology
4.Theatre 1/2
5.Concert Choir
6.Teachers Aide/Rec Dance
it's not going to be oh so easy but I won't be killing myself, at least I hope not.
Spring break is going to be amazing! It starts on my birthday, March 28th, and I am having my party woo. Boy is even coming up to celebrate with me, and I am so excited. It will have been 26 days total that I'd gone without seeing him! I miss him a lot now that we're so far apart and I am the only with a car but we make it work well.
So after the party I have science olympiad regionals, I know lame but I am a nerd. Then that monday I going to BG to hang out with all my wku friends and staying until wednesday morning at which point I am driving to Lexington to see Georgetown College and my brother and sister-in-law. On thursday I'm going to Cinci to see Xavier, and then driving back to Lex, and friday I am seeing UK and Bellarmine on the way home. It's going to be great.
I can't wait for spring fling for the bcm, I will definitely be there and I can't wait.
Summer is going to be so busy but I will probably see boy as much as I get to now. I can't wait until Ben and Haley's wedding! that will be awesome.
I am still doing makeup work but the semester ends friday so I think I'll be all caught up by then.
We took the ACT today and I am praying for at least a 26 or higher Id love a 28.
Well better go do that home/make-up work!
2.21.2008
Transitional
Alright so I'm back in high school and I was right it is different but I made the right choice.
I love the people, I love teachers actually caring about me, I love the experience knowing this will be over soon, I love having time to myself, I love beginning to love my family. I am so much happier here and I know it's for the best.
I am going to play soccer this spring, work at camp loucon this summer and be a camper again :), I get my senior pictures taken this summer, I am going to take dance classes again next year. There is so much more time on my hands, I actually can relax and watch T.V., I know what a luxory right?
Me and the boy are finally official and I couldn't be happier. He is so amazing and I am so blessed to have him in my life. But we both know how to prioritize each other. My friend said I spent every free moment with him a couple of days ago and I thought about that accusation which turned out being completely false. Now that we're 97 miles apart we see each other every 2-3 weeks and it is so great when we do. I saw him this past weekend and we had an awesome time. When I go visit at WKU I go to see him, of course, but I have other reasons and plenty of faces to see. We have gotten in the habit of good night calls, which are a favorite part of my day just getting to talk about whatever, vent, laugh, and just get to know him more. We have been together almost close to 5 months now, my longest relationship ever, and I couldn't be happier.
On to my next random thought! Colleges. My parents are going to definitely help me pay for college and Im trying to raise my ACT so I get more scholarship but I'm afraid I won't pull high enough. For places to consider giving you even half scholarship now they expect a 31 ACT and I'm sorry but for most people that's impossible and with the nations average ACT a 20 and college tuition costs on the rise it seems more and more impossible. So I have been considering public schools more and more. I am so afraid of being lost in the crowd and having a hard time meeting people at a huge university though, but I also want a school offering a variety of majors seeing as I have absolutely no clue as to what I want to do with my life. So here are the ones I'm thinking about and want to visit. I am only considering schools in IN, KY, OH, TN I don't want to be more than 6 hours away from home.
UK
UofL
Union University
Xavier University
DePauw University
Bellarmine University
WKU
Lambuth University
Lipscomb University
The College of Wooster
Kent State
Butler University
Georgetown College
Berea College
So that took awhile for me looking through all possible schools in those states but theres a good mix of public and private. Now I just have to figure out which is for me.
I love the people, I love teachers actually caring about me, I love the experience knowing this will be over soon, I love having time to myself, I love beginning to love my family. I am so much happier here and I know it's for the best.
I am going to play soccer this spring, work at camp loucon this summer and be a camper again :), I get my senior pictures taken this summer, I am going to take dance classes again next year. There is so much more time on my hands, I actually can relax and watch T.V., I know what a luxory right?
Me and the boy are finally official and I couldn't be happier. He is so amazing and I am so blessed to have him in my life. But we both know how to prioritize each other. My friend said I spent every free moment with him a couple of days ago and I thought about that accusation which turned out being completely false. Now that we're 97 miles apart we see each other every 2-3 weeks and it is so great when we do. I saw him this past weekend and we had an awesome time. When I go visit at WKU I go to see him, of course, but I have other reasons and plenty of faces to see. We have gotten in the habit of good night calls, which are a favorite part of my day just getting to talk about whatever, vent, laugh, and just get to know him more. We have been together almost close to 5 months now, my longest relationship ever, and I couldn't be happier.
On to my next random thought! Colleges. My parents are going to definitely help me pay for college and Im trying to raise my ACT so I get more scholarship but I'm afraid I won't pull high enough. For places to consider giving you even half scholarship now they expect a 31 ACT and I'm sorry but for most people that's impossible and with the nations average ACT a 20 and college tuition costs on the rise it seems more and more impossible. So I have been considering public schools more and more. I am so afraid of being lost in the crowd and having a hard time meeting people at a huge university though, but I also want a school offering a variety of majors seeing as I have absolutely no clue as to what I want to do with my life. So here are the ones I'm thinking about and want to visit. I am only considering schools in IN, KY, OH, TN I don't want to be more than 6 hours away from home.
UK
UofL
Union University
Xavier University
DePauw University
Bellarmine University
WKU
Lambuth University
Lipscomb University
The College of Wooster
Kent State
Butler University
Georgetown College
Berea College
So that took awhile for me looking through all possible schools in those states but theres a good mix of public and private. Now I just have to figure out which is for me.
1.24.2008
Be a Revolutionary
A movement for our generation to show the love of Christ through our actions everyday.
Ephesians 5:2
and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
The word of God says this about Love:
1 John 3:18
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
1 John 4:8
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
1 Corinthians 16:14
Do everything in love.
Galatians 5:6
The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.
1 Corinthians 13:3-8, 13
If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies.
But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.
(The Message)
2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
Hebrews 6:10
God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.
Matthew 22:37
Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'
Matthew 22:39
Love your neighbor as yourself
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 13:34
A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
John 15:9
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.
Romans 5:5
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Romans 8:38-39
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 12:9-10
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
1 Corinthians 8:3
But the man who loves God is known by God.
2 Corinthians 13:11
And the God of love and peace will be with you.
Ephesians 2:4-5
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.
Ephesians 3:16-19
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Ephesians 4:2
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
Philippians 2:1-3
If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.
1 Thessalonians 3:12
May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else.
2 Thessalonians 3:5
May the Lord direct your hearts into God's love and Christ's perseverance.
1 Timothy 4:12
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
2 Timothy 2:22
Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
1 Peter 4:8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
1 John 2:5-6
But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.
1 John 3:11
This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another.
Jude 1:21
Keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.
The bible is God's love story to man
Theses are only a few examples of God love!
His love is written throughout. The first half of the bible is God giving His people commandments so that they may be good enough for him, and the second half is God's ultimate love giving his Son to pay for our sin.
Isaiah 43 starts by saying But now, this is what the LORD says—
Verses 4 and 5 say this:
Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you...Do not be afraid for I am with you.
The NIV translation of the bible uses the word love 697 times!
God loves us so much, that's why he created us to lavish His love on us. He didn't need us He wanted us. He sent His Son to die for our mistakes, He continues His invitation of love every second of every hour of every day of every year.
Live Love is a simple concept, to be the generation that glorifies God through our actions of love to our fellow human beings.
Remember these scripture verses, Remember the cross, Remember God's desire to love us, and then Remember to Live Love.
Start the movement.
P.S. Boy will either be referred to as apple (don't ask), or as man. He has been upgraded from boy. I'm pretty proud of him :)!
Ephesians 5:2
and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.
The word of God says this about Love:
1 John 3:18
Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.
1 John 4:8
Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.
1 Corinthians 16:14
Do everything in love.
Galatians 5:6
The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.
1 Corinthians 13:3-8, 13
If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
Love never dies.
But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation: Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.
(The Message)
2 Timothy 1:7
For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.
Hebrews 6:10
God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.
Matthew 22:37
Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'
Matthew 22:39
Love your neighbor as yourself
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.
John 13:34
A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
John 15:9
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.
Romans 5:5
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
Romans 8:38-39
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 12:9-10
Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil; cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves.
1 Corinthians 8:3
But the man who loves God is known by God.
2 Corinthians 13:11
And the God of love and peace will be with you.
Ephesians 2:4-5
But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved.
Ephesians 3:16-19
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Ephesians 4:2
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.
Philippians 2:1-3
If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves.
1 Thessalonians 3:12
May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else.
2 Thessalonians 3:5
May the Lord direct your hearts into God's love and Christ's perseverance.
1 Timothy 4:12
Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
2 Timothy 2:22
Flee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
1 Peter 4:8
Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.
1 John 2:5-6
But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.
1 John 3:11
This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another.
Jude 1:21
Keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.
The bible is God's love story to man
Theses are only a few examples of God love!
His love is written throughout. The first half of the bible is God giving His people commandments so that they may be good enough for him, and the second half is God's ultimate love giving his Son to pay for our sin.
Isaiah 43 starts by saying But now, this is what the LORD says—
Verses 4 and 5 say this:
Since you are precious and honored in my sight, and because I love you...Do not be afraid for I am with you.
The NIV translation of the bible uses the word love 697 times!
God loves us so much, that's why he created us to lavish His love on us. He didn't need us He wanted us. He sent His Son to die for our mistakes, He continues His invitation of love every second of every hour of every day of every year.
Live Love is a simple concept, to be the generation that glorifies God through our actions of love to our fellow human beings.
Remember these scripture verses, Remember the cross, Remember God's desire to love us, and then Remember to Live Love.
Start the movement.
P.S. Boy will either be referred to as apple (don't ask), or as man. He has been upgraded from boy. I'm pretty proud of him :)!
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