Leggo my Eggo

Today has been pretty normal...

Woke up late, watched episodes of Brothers and sisters, then went to my grandparents. My brother and sister-in-law were out there. I jump at every chance I get to see them now. I ate some awesome cantelope and corn on the cob best 2 summer foods ever.

For the first time in my life my brother and I threw the football around in the back yard. We played for a good 20 or 30 minutes in the miserable heat. He said I had a really good arm, I was so excited. At the very end he went down to hike the ball and I caught it. I made a full on sprint to the other side of the yard, slammed the ball down, and yelled "TOUCHDOWN!!!" Not to mention I did my touchdown dance. It was so much fun. I never played with him much as a kid since we were close to 8 years apart so it's nice to now.

I came home and there was my dad. He had been out picking corn and shucking it all day. My mom had given me permission to go stay the night down in another town with my friends who I hadnt seen since april. When I told him I was going he was upset that I hadnt gotten his permission and said I couldnt go. Tears immeadiately welled in my eyes. He started saying "Now don't get theatrical on me." He reassured me he was just joking, but in a very unreassured voice. I turned to walk in the house and walked up stairs to take my shower I was sobbing hysterically. Even in the shower I stepped in, put the water on ice cold, turn the radio up loud and just sobbed. I havent really cried just to cry in a long time. I though maybe something was wrong but then I knew my body just had a lot of emotion to release. It felt so good. I was using this tea tree shampoo and the aroma began to calm me down and I just felt a million times better. My chest feels so clear and breathing seems easier than ever. I hated that I felt like my dad had caused that but after I realized that wasnt so I forgave myself and just let myself cry as much as I need.

ps once I was done crying, still in the shower, I danced :)

Now I am going to pack up and head down to see my friends for the night.
If you ever begin to cry, sometimes its just best to let the tears come as they may.

xoabby t.