A Midsummer Night's Dream

Alright so... This is the new look for the blog. It's got a whole new title and even a whole new weblink to access it. I felt it was time for some change. I have had an entire summer's worth of change. This summer has been the most spontaneous summer I have ever had. When I was younger I knew I was going to the pool everyday to swim or my mom had something planned. When I hit high school I started making my summer plans in about January. I did that this year but it didn't quite workout.

I have basically thrown away who I use to be and I started over. I mean I am 17 and I have time to really figure out what I want, belive, and stand for. I had just been taking in what ever I was spoon fed. Sure I was ask the basic questions but I never really went beyond the surface...of anything. I am now diving beyond the surface of myself. Looking at past experiences and taking from them lessons to carry me into the future. I have never been good with identifying my emotions or handling them, so this summer I began working on that. So much has changed for me. My outlook of so many things I thought I valued and respected so highly have disenigrated.

I really hope my senior year turns out great. Next week I take senior pictures and Im not really all that thrilled too. Then school begins. The schedule I thought I had got tossed out like last Fall's fashion. Now it looks a little something like this:

1-Art
2/3-AP English 4
4-Calc. 1/Calc. 2
5-Teachers Aide/WWII Nazi Germany
6-Organic Chem

It will most certainly be a challenge. I really wish I had gotten to take anatomy.

I love my brother and sister-in-laws new house, its so beautiful. I am so glad they are so happy together. They are truly each others compliments. I don't think my brother could have picked a better sister-in-law for me. Since I only have a brother, this is the only extra sibling Ill get. I have the perfect big sister. No shes not perfect as in never makes a mistake but she's imperfectly perfect.

I really value and respect her. She is so wise and mature. She knows how to just have fun and kick back though too. The thing I really admire about her is the fact the she is herself all the time 100% unapologetically. She is the same in front of me, as she is in front of my family, my brother, her family, her friends, and even strangers. Just 2 nights ago we went shopping and she always talked to the cashiers so friendly. She probably made their day just be noticing they are humans too and appreciating what they do. She is a great person and I would be lucky to become half the woman she is.

So I have been teaching myself russian lately. How you might ask? Well I'll tell you. There is a great website called mango. It lets you take 50 lessons of a language and learn at least enough to get you around and through a conversation. I am on lesson 4. It is a very simple program and it sticks with you very well. They offer around 10 or 11 languages. I highly recommend it if you want to pick up some extra foreign languages. I am really enjoying it. If I keep it up I might even major in Russian.

Speaking of major...that leads to College! I am excited and terrified all at the same time.
I have my choices narrowed down to UK and WKU, two excellent schools. I probably should make a pro/con list like my wise friend Ali suggested but Ill get to it eventually. I hate applying for all the random scholarships out there. Its so boring and time consuming. I dont even know how good my chances are but I guess free money is worth a shot. Hopefully Ill make a little extra to put toward college.

There are a lot of majors I am considering but mostly: Anthropology, Dietetics, International Studies, Linguistics, Public Reltions, Political Science, Sociology, and Russian.

Others Im just merely considering: Art history, Pre-med(ob/gyn), Social Work, and Other foreign languages.

I know its a lot to think about, but they are pretty connected. Most of them work hands on with people. I love politics and cultures and languages so theres another connection.

I really hope I can do dance this year, I miss dancing a lot. I hope when I go to school I can give crew, fencing, and lacrosse a shot. I have always wanted to do those three.

I am getting better at guitar. I love playing!

If you haven't read The Secret or The Last Lecture I highly recommend it.

Sorry for thr random mass of ranting but thats whats been on my mind.
Enjoy what's left of the Summer :)

xoabbyt.