Playlist of my teenage life

Everything has been going pretty well. I made all A's on my report card, I didn't think that was even possible. I'm getting terribly nervous about having to make a choice on college. I am applying to NKU, UofL, and UK so it's not like there are just too many it's that I like them all.

On to something I don't already spend 50% of my blogs blogging about. The love life is still dormant but I actually kind of enjoy being single. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't mind if a great guy walked into my life but I'm not going to go searching him out.

I have made a lot of new friends lately. I am so thankful for that. This year I have been able to become friends with guys a lot easier. I also met an amazing girl who is a foreign exchange student from China. Then I have a great new friend from my anatomy class, she's pretty amazing. We're really similiar on every subject except politics. Her brother is 2 years older than I am but I'm begging her to hook me up, I think we'd have a lot in common too, not to mention he's very good looking.

I have had a pinched nerve in my back which really stinks but I finally found a patch that helps it, I hope it will go away soon.

I love being on fall break it is so nice to not be under piles of homework but I know this time next week I'll be right back under them. BOO.

That's about all thats new. Not to exciting I know but maybe after this week or a couple weeks I'll have an interesting story for you to read.

I highly recommend seeing Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist--great movie!

xoabbyt.

Confetti

Wow! It's almost been a month since I have wrote anything. I have just gotten so busy and caught up in everything else going on around me. I don't know where to begin...

I think wresting with my faith and what I believe made me stronger and it helped me come to a place where I have whole-hearted reassurance.

School is alright I suppose. I am no artist but I get an A for effort in Art. I am in two english classes at the moment and its a little odd. The first one is mostly reading, which Im not to fond of. I, however, love the second one. We learn how to argue and then go into arguements. It's amazing! Anatomy is pretty fun, it's definitely very interesting. Organic Chemistry is my biggest royal pain. I have such a hard time with it. I hope I survive it alright.

Oh College! Boy am I confused! I have to tour NKU and UofL but I think I will apply anyways. I have already completed my UofL application. I am also, of course, applying to UK. All of them are in decent size metropolitan areas. All have law schools. I am leaning towards Political Science and Linguistics more than any other majors. I want to minor a foreign language for sure. The only problem is UK is the only one that offers Linguistics. It is definitely going to be a tough choice.

I think I am going to take the ACT for a 5th and final time. I wanted to do the october deadline I just dont feel like Id be able to study as much as I want to. Applications aren't technically due in until feb. and march so I think I will take the one in december. If I make a 24 or 25 like all the other times so be it but I will hopefully hit a point or two above this time if I study as hard as I want to.

I am hopefully going to get to go to WKU to visit all of my friends next weekend. I would be so excited if I get to. Fall break is only 2 weeks away, I can't wait! I need to really get working on my applications. Senior year is nothing but a whirlwind of mass chaos. It's so insane. I hope I survive it all.

I love my new job, Im a telemarketer for auto insurance. I make really good moeny for only working 6 hours a week.

I am so glad everything is falling into place, it always does it always will.

I look forward to seeing how far I have come by the end of this year and looking back over all of my blogs to see the progress.

I can't wait for a letter from the little girl I sponsor in hondouras.

"The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one."

xoabbyt.

Welcome to the Jungle

I don't even know where to begin. You have no idea how much can happen in 10 days.

Let's start with the good stuff...I like to hear the good news before the bad.

I am really proud of myself. This year I have really put everything behind me and let the past live in the past. A lot of people who I considered "enemies" are now friends of mine. Also I have never been good at having guy friends but this year I have quite a few. I am trying to really focus of my studies this year. I have joined about 4 clubs which I will really try to dedicate myself to.

I may have a job, Ill know for sure after this week is over. So thats a plus. It would only be 6 hours a week, and I would make atleast 42 dollars more than likely around 70 so thats some extra spending/gas money.

I am set on UK however when it comes to majors I have no idea. Im considering Political Science, Linguistics, and Foreign Languages more than anything else but Im going in as undeclared...as well as 3 hours shy of being a sophomore. I may try to take a summer course at the community college just so I can full be a sophomore.

I don't have any crazy love life boy drama which is such a nice change. No point in getting attached before going off to college.

I still really love all of my classes, I dont know if Ill love them so much after my first test grade but we'll see. My hardest class is Organic Chem. I am really enjoying Anatomy and Art. Both are classes I just thought Id be apathetic about. English isn't too challenging, but it's about to get harder and harder I can tell. I hope I can make it through that class alright.

I am starting to figure some things out about my beliefs. I think I was just a crossroads, a point where all I had was blindness. I have started trying to read the bible to figure out some answers. I am going to church tomorrow for the first time in over a month. I know a lot of people really care about me and I am so thankful to have amazing people like that in my life. My wondering heart is beginning to emerge from the darkness. One thing I can say is that if I do fall on the path I was on before I will believe whole heartedly and I will not act the same. I didnt think I put people below me, but I did. I will not make that same mistake.

Ali is leaning more and more toward UK which makes me really happy. I would so love to be at the same place together. I miss her terribly. I am just really thankful we take the time to talk most everyday. She is one of the biggest blessings in my life, and she is my best friend.

I think that covers the good.
I am in such a good mood I dont even want to discuss the bad so I'll leave it at that and let all of you be happy as well.

I am so excited to see how my senior year plays out. I need to get my camera battery charged and start taking tons of pictures.

To all of you who care about me and take the time to read this, I appreciate it and you mean a lot to me.

Enjoy the 3 day weekend!

xoabbyt.

The Lion Sleeps Tonight

Things have been improving since my last blog, in case you were wondering. It was just a really crappy day. I just didn't feel like I had a lot of hope that day. Things are pretty peachy right about now though. Its been a good weekend.

I spent the night with my friend S on friday, on saturday we went shopping. I got this adorable dresss and 2 pair of jeans. I also bought 2 pair of sunglasses and a ring. My favorite item had to be my new back pack. Am I a nerd or what? No but seriously this backpack is so awesome. It is Zebra Print! My sister-in-law got me addicted to Zebra print. By the way, it is really in right now so you too should jump on the band wagon. But its really cute plus it has pink zippers and stitching so that adds to just how fabulous it truly is.

We played wii for a while and then went to the best mexican resteraunt you will ever eat at...Los Toribios. We rented Vantage Point, which I highly reccomend. It was a very good action/thriller. We watched this documentary about high school students in china to kill sometime because we were going to sneak out and go play a prank but we got tired. So we were like we'll wake up in the middle of the night and do it, but we didnt we were so tired.

I have basically been doing homework all day. I have a test everyday until thursday boo! I really need to start figuring out a way to balance everything better. I am going to call about this job and hopefully get a little extra spending money yay!! I do have homework it's just not a terribly taxing amount. I couldnt have to work everyday but a few nights wouldn't be awful.

I am still pretty set on UK, I think I'm going to stay with Ali, who all of you know is my wise friend. She does exsists by the way, she thinks I make her sound like my invisible yoda or something. She lives in lexington so I will do another tour when I see her.

I will keep promoting Obama on my blog, so if your a McCain fan Im sorry. You will only have to hear about it until november 4. On november 5th hopefully I will get to write a very happy blog.

One thing I hate about being friends with guys is mixed signals. Either you both like each other or one of you does. There is always confusion as to which one it is though. I feel like in the situation Im in, that it is both but I dont want to be wrong.

Last night I got my first drunk dial call. It was interesting to say the least.

Postsecret is really good this week, if you don't know what it is you really need to check it out.
www.postsecret.com

Tomorrow night Im going to see the governor speak, I am so excited. I am such a politics geek. I really think Political Science would be a perfect major for me. Who knows maybe I'll be the governor one day, or maybe a lawyer.

I really believe you should follow your dreams no matter what. If they seem impossible, they probably are but if you work at it, I truly believe even the impossible can come true. I'm going to work toward my dream of doing something to better every person. I want to help my county, I love America. I want to see our country as the giant melting pot it was meant to be. I want to see America rise to the top again, because I believe that it is possible. I want to be part of that change.

I think thats all of the random rants I have.
Other than I love where I am at in my life right now.
I hate that my sims isn't working.
I'll be really glad when I can be done with the Invisible Man.
I am super excited for the new fall season of tv shows to start.
I am in love with the olympics.

I don't know if any of this helped or mattered but you can always leave a comment to let me know what you think. I think I can take constructive criticism.

xoabbyt.

Confusionism

Today is not a good day at all. I feel like I'm a nobody when I walk through those halls, but when it comes to the talk of the halls man, I'm everybody. When I returned from wku I was the talk of all talk. It died down over the summer. It's back

This time about the stupidest thing. My personal life--my religion. Apparently before I was what is being deemed as "super religious". Now, like coming out of the gay closet, I have apparently declared my atheism. It has spread from freshman to senior. The thing is thats not exactly true. I am what I have termed as confusionism. I do not accept nor reject religion. I do care, but I am trying to figure things out for myself, instead of consuming what has been spoonfed to me for 17 years. I don't know what I really believe about God so I dont want to still say Im christian and act like a hypocrite or I could just say I am confused and try to figure it out. But not in my small town, but huge high school. No, not for me. I have to be at the top of the gossip chain.

A lot of you may not agree with me being upset about this but I am so this is just me venting how I feel.

I am just so annoyed, offended, ashamed, and confused.

I thought about ending my 6 months, for the first time since but I didnt. Im just walking around in the dark. I dont feel like there are tangible answers to any of this.

Not to help my day a pretty good friend of mine was in a really bad car wreck today. Luckily he is alive. He flipped he expedition 3 times and broke 2 vertebrae in his back. He also has a concussion. He wont have to go through surgery but he is on bedrest for 2 weeks and he will have a back brace for 3 months and probably have to endure some physical therapy. My graduating high school class has seen 6 deaths. I am so sick of car wrecks.

That brings me to my next point.
Im fed up with immaturity, you may think the way I feel is immature so Im sorry if that is the case. I just Im ready to graduate and go start my like at UK, far far away.

Im over highschool, the drama, the shallowness, the racism, the conceitedness, the immaturity, the stupidity, the carelessness, the apathy.

I just dont know what I believe, there for I am a confusionist. I will try not to think about those thoughts.

No promises, no garuntees in the outcome.

xoabbyt.