It's coming down to nothing more than apathy

Okay so this week has been a little off, well compared to my norms. Shall I explain, you ask? Why not! I have nothing better to do than to blog about my amazing boring life ha. Sorry for the extra pinch over sarcasm today, I'm really not myself. You see I have cluster migraines and usually taking my meds, sleeping, and a hot washclothe will fix that...not this time! I have had a migraine for 3 days! Let me just say that is miserable in case you haven't ever had one. Mine is so bad it has caused nausea, dizziness, and made me really weak. I went to a clinic, because I don't have a doctor at the moment, but they gave me a muscle relaxor and a pain killer. I will go see a doctor next week but for now I am just uber drowsy and draggy. I feel like I should get up and do something but I don't the endurance or stamina. I am also very noise and light sensitive, which is just awesome since the world has to have light and there is always going to be noise. I haven't really done much for the past few days to sum it up since I have been pretty lazy.

On to something not anymore exciting but possibly less whiny. I haven't really gotten anything accomplished but I'm going to try to do that today. I did send in my applications to UK and UofL, the only schools I am applying to. I pray I am accepted into UK. My dream is to be there in the middle of Lexington this time next year. I am not really sure as to what to major, I have this huge book on majors and I mean I am considering quite a few possibilities so we'll see. I have thought about: poltical science, sociology, occupational therapy, economics, linguistics, public relations, and maybe a foreign language. One of those, hey at least I have it decently narrowed down. I'm just praying it all works out for me to be there and be in Commonwealth stadium screaming C-A-T-S CATS CATS CATS!

What is exciting is Taylor Swifts new album! It blows me away, I mean it seriously made my jaw drop. She is so incredibly talented. I wish I could play guitar as well as she can. Chords are a breeze...for the most part, but I can't pick at all. I would be really greatful if i could learn, but we're talking about Taylor here. So she has really evolved her sound. It's still her but it just has this matured sound to it. I watched her on her myspace doing a live video chat and she is just so real. She didn't try to dress up or get mad if something messed up, she just laughed at herself when something went wrong. Seriously though, I know my blog only gets looked at by maybe 1 person a week but YOU should go get her new album.

I am so in love with my laptop and my new cell phone. They are the best! I love having texting, it is seriously the best. So if your looking for a new laptop I recommend the Dell Studio 15, and as for a new cell phone the LG Shine is very reliable. I wish I had waited 2 weeks and gotten the Samsung Propel because it looks amazing, its like a blackjack that is a slider. So there's my technology reviews for the week.

I think I am way tangled up into One Tree Hill and Grey's Anatomy this season. I have always been a huge follower but this season is a big deal for both of them. Both of them are in their 5 season. I have all of the Grey's on dvd and when Im sick, like now, or I am having a bad day I put in one of the discs and watch all of the episode on that disc. I have been doing that for 3 days now, I have seen the all the seasons of Grey's over 10 times. I can quote most lines, but I just like it...alot okay.

I received a letter from my little girl in Hondouras that I sponsor. She is so amazing. Her 10th birthday is in less than a month. She is such a huge encouragement to me. I write her back too and she always tells me how for her, when she has a bad day she re-reads my letters. I think it is such a reward to be able to help support her. I sponsor her through a group called Compassion. Its a committment of 34 dollars a month but it gets her doctor bills, dental bills, school, gets her to church, helps her family afford food, and a portion is saved each month to go to a christmas gift. Her family makes about 8 dollars a month and she has 5 other siblings so I feel like I make a difference for her, and I know she makes a difference for me.

So I think to sum it up I am really sick of being sick and my head hurting. Taylor Swift's album is incredible and YOU must buy it! I want to go to UK so bad. I love sponoring my child. Grey's Antomy and One Tree Hill=Life. Oh and Sophia Bush from One Tree Hill is pretty awesome too. We didn't talk about love life, but there's still nothing there. However I think I know who I might ask to prom so thats exciting. I have my first weigh in at Curves next wednesday so we'll see how much progress I have made in a month. I set a new record for our curves, most calories burned in 1 workout--in 30 minutes I burned 650 calories.

Now I am going to get on my giant to do list and try to get something accomplished, but thats unlikely.

xoabbyt.

Macaroni Noodles

I was looking at my blog for the first time in a month laughing at one of my top things. Can you guess it? I said I was happy gas was in the $3.30's! HA! Gas is $1.92 now and I couldn't be happier. I cant fill my tank for under twenty dollars, Im still shocked when it stops before it even hits twenty.

Things have been rough lately. I have had my ups and downs that for sure. I don't come from the greatest family. Sometimes I think they try but I don't know how much more effort they could put forth. I have done really well with coping with it all and I have been going 10 months strong. I have to count on other people sometime to hold me up when I get weak but I think I am finally realizing I can't do it all on my own.

I have been getting back into the depths of my relationship with Christ as well. I began having one on one time again and it's been really good for me. I don't know why but sometimes I just walk away until I turn around and run right back.

I have finished my college applications. I only applies to two schools, my top choice and my back up--UK and UofL. I pray that this time next year I will be in Lexington, the best city ever, and at UK. It has everything I want. I am not compromising anything for it. UofL I would be but hopefully I can make UK work out. I have quite a few scholarships I'm applying for and I really need to get a few of them. I also am taking the ACT again in December and really need to pull 3 points higher, a 28. This would really help ease the financial burden on my parents because $15,800 is no where near what I call cheap.

I have been trying to get healthy lately. I have been at it for 2 weeks now and so far so good. I have made a lot of changes to my eating habits and what I eat. I also joined Curves which has been a tremendous step for me. It kicks my butt but it will make me better for it. I have a long way to go but so far I have lost 2.5 lbs. I don't want to get skinny although being able to see a single digit on jeans again would be nice and fitting into a pair of hollister jeans would be out of this world. But all I know if that I want to look and feel good. I would kill to be able to buy a bikini when its swimsuit season, I never have bought one but for now Im a long way a way. I am taking it one 10 lbs block at a time. I am hoping to look and feel great at prom and graduation and in a 1 piece when I lifegaurd next summer. Im not asking for the perfect body or abs I just know I can do this and I need to do this. I love doing outdoor activities I need to be more active. I don't exactly have the best family medical history, plus I don't want to give my kids the start I got off to.

Also I would love to find a guy who is very much an outdoors person. Rapelling, skiing, whitewater rafting, hiking, camping, kayaking, and more. I am all about the outdoors. I don't get to do it enough but I love it when I do. When I am in shape I will be able to do it more and have a better time with it. I also love most sports anyway. Lacrosse, football, soccer, baseball, basketball, tennis. I am a pretty big sports buff. I also love action movies because of the adrenaline rush. Anything that gives you an adrenaline rush Im game for. I would love to try sky diving sometime but for now I just stick to the biggest, baddest rollar coasters I can find at amusement parks. I don't do the sissy rides I just do rollar coasters and the water park.

The love life is still at a 0 but I am okay with that. Not completely of course but I love this year at school. I have really branched out and became friends with a lot of guys. That has been...interesting. I say hi to so many people when I walk through the halls its amazing. This year is definitely the best. I can't wait for it to be over so I can start UK but at the same time I don't want to grow up. I am alright with the single factor because I don't want it to be with someone random, I want that adventurous outsdoors guy which I doubt Ill meet 'til I get in shape and become more outdoorsy and adventurous. I also probably won't meet him until college, which is fine by me since I didn't really want to be tied down for my senior year anyway. The one thing I do worry about though is...prom date. That will be interesting to see how it all plays out.

I don't think anything else really exciting has happened. I am really going to try to update this more but no garuntees I stay pretty busy. Wish me luck & I'll keep you guys updates.

xoabbyt.

Playlist of my teenage life

Everything has been going pretty well. I made all A's on my report card, I didn't think that was even possible. I'm getting terribly nervous about having to make a choice on college. I am applying to NKU, UofL, and UK so it's not like there are just too many it's that I like them all.

On to something I don't already spend 50% of my blogs blogging about. The love life is still dormant but I actually kind of enjoy being single. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't mind if a great guy walked into my life but I'm not going to go searching him out.

I have made a lot of new friends lately. I am so thankful for that. This year I have been able to become friends with guys a lot easier. I also met an amazing girl who is a foreign exchange student from China. Then I have a great new friend from my anatomy class, she's pretty amazing. We're really similiar on every subject except politics. Her brother is 2 years older than I am but I'm begging her to hook me up, I think we'd have a lot in common too, not to mention he's very good looking.

I have had a pinched nerve in my back which really stinks but I finally found a patch that helps it, I hope it will go away soon.

I love being on fall break it is so nice to not be under piles of homework but I know this time next week I'll be right back under them. BOO.

That's about all thats new. Not to exciting I know but maybe after this week or a couple weeks I'll have an interesting story for you to read.

I highly recommend seeing Nick and Norahs Infinite Playlist--great movie!

xoabbyt.

Confetti

Wow! It's almost been a month since I have wrote anything. I have just gotten so busy and caught up in everything else going on around me. I don't know where to begin...

I think wresting with my faith and what I believe made me stronger and it helped me come to a place where I have whole-hearted reassurance.

School is alright I suppose. I am no artist but I get an A for effort in Art. I am in two english classes at the moment and its a little odd. The first one is mostly reading, which Im not to fond of. I, however, love the second one. We learn how to argue and then go into arguements. It's amazing! Anatomy is pretty fun, it's definitely very interesting. Organic Chemistry is my biggest royal pain. I have such a hard time with it. I hope I survive it alright.

Oh College! Boy am I confused! I have to tour NKU and UofL but I think I will apply anyways. I have already completed my UofL application. I am also, of course, applying to UK. All of them are in decent size metropolitan areas. All have law schools. I am leaning towards Political Science and Linguistics more than any other majors. I want to minor a foreign language for sure. The only problem is UK is the only one that offers Linguistics. It is definitely going to be a tough choice.

I think I am going to take the ACT for a 5th and final time. I wanted to do the october deadline I just dont feel like Id be able to study as much as I want to. Applications aren't technically due in until feb. and march so I think I will take the one in december. If I make a 24 or 25 like all the other times so be it but I will hopefully hit a point or two above this time if I study as hard as I want to.

I am hopefully going to get to go to WKU to visit all of my friends next weekend. I would be so excited if I get to. Fall break is only 2 weeks away, I can't wait! I need to really get working on my applications. Senior year is nothing but a whirlwind of mass chaos. It's so insane. I hope I survive it all.

I love my new job, Im a telemarketer for auto insurance. I make really good moeny for only working 6 hours a week.

I am so glad everything is falling into place, it always does it always will.

I look forward to seeing how far I have come by the end of this year and looking back over all of my blogs to see the progress.

I can't wait for a letter from the little girl I sponsor in hondouras.

"The mark of the immature man is that he wants to die nobly for a cause, while the mark of the mature man is that he wants to live humbly for one."

xoabbyt.

Welcome to the Jungle

I don't even know where to begin. You have no idea how much can happen in 10 days.

Let's start with the good stuff...I like to hear the good news before the bad.

I am really proud of myself. This year I have really put everything behind me and let the past live in the past. A lot of people who I considered "enemies" are now friends of mine. Also I have never been good at having guy friends but this year I have quite a few. I am trying to really focus of my studies this year. I have joined about 4 clubs which I will really try to dedicate myself to.

I may have a job, Ill know for sure after this week is over. So thats a plus. It would only be 6 hours a week, and I would make atleast 42 dollars more than likely around 70 so thats some extra spending/gas money.

I am set on UK however when it comes to majors I have no idea. Im considering Political Science, Linguistics, and Foreign Languages more than anything else but Im going in as undeclared...as well as 3 hours shy of being a sophomore. I may try to take a summer course at the community college just so I can full be a sophomore.

I don't have any crazy love life boy drama which is such a nice change. No point in getting attached before going off to college.

I still really love all of my classes, I dont know if Ill love them so much after my first test grade but we'll see. My hardest class is Organic Chem. I am really enjoying Anatomy and Art. Both are classes I just thought Id be apathetic about. English isn't too challenging, but it's about to get harder and harder I can tell. I hope I can make it through that class alright.

I am starting to figure some things out about my beliefs. I think I was just a crossroads, a point where all I had was blindness. I have started trying to read the bible to figure out some answers. I am going to church tomorrow for the first time in over a month. I know a lot of people really care about me and I am so thankful to have amazing people like that in my life. My wondering heart is beginning to emerge from the darkness. One thing I can say is that if I do fall on the path I was on before I will believe whole heartedly and I will not act the same. I didnt think I put people below me, but I did. I will not make that same mistake.

Ali is leaning more and more toward UK which makes me really happy. I would so love to be at the same place together. I miss her terribly. I am just really thankful we take the time to talk most everyday. She is one of the biggest blessings in my life, and she is my best friend.

I think that covers the good.
I am in such a good mood I dont even want to discuss the bad so I'll leave it at that and let all of you be happy as well.

I am so excited to see how my senior year plays out. I need to get my camera battery charged and start taking tons of pictures.

To all of you who care about me and take the time to read this, I appreciate it and you mean a lot to me.

Enjoy the 3 day weekend!

xoabbyt.