Torn at the Crossroads

Where to begin? I cannot believe in 9 days I will be moved in at UK, that is so exciting. There is so much to talk about so this could take awhile.

I am doing very well in my spanish class. For the past two tests I have had the highest grade in the class which has truly amazed me. I learned nothing for HCHS spanish...and I took it 2 years ago so it's a miracle. I am really enjoying it though, I just hope SPA 102 at UK doesn't masacre me. I will also be volunteering at Maxwell Elementary this semester, which is a Spanish Immersion school. Half of the curriculum is taught to the students in spanish, by the time they leave for middle school they are fluent in spanish. I can't wait to have a glimpse into the program.

K-Week at UK is going to be amazing there is so much to do, I can't believe it's almost here. I still have so much to do in so little time. I need to get my A-game back on.

This week I am helping out at the local elementary school, east heights. I really love kids and so I am shadowing a teacher to see if it's something I could see myself doing.

So I am having an epiphany about Love. That I have a complete and total fear of it. Not just in relationships but in the spirtual way as well. I am going to attempt to be vulnerable and just be myself, being open to the possibility of love from others in relationships. I am also going to try to begin to fall in love with Jesus for the first time. I just recently was able to admit a secret I had been carrying, I had never read the gospels. So last night after watching southland's first week of the IT series, which might I say really opened the eyes of my heart even more, I began reading the first two chapters of Matthew. You can view the southland IT series here: http://www.southlandchristian.org/media/series/it/ well worth your time. I also bought a book called Crazy Love by Francis Chan that I am giving a chance. I want to experience that imtimate one-on-one with Jesus, my heavenly father, my Creator.

Now onto the Crossroads... can you guess what it could possibly be about? We've covered school, jesus, the only thing left is...boys. So I'm between a rock and hard place basically. I have a really tough decision to make. You see I am standing at this crossroads, there are two roads. One is a lot longer, but it could end in a cliff and its pretty bumpy...it has a rough past. I don't know whether to trust that road to get me safely to end or if it could end up damaging me. The other road is fairly short and new, it looks as if there are hardly any flaws. I don't know if this road will go very far or if it will make me happier in the long run. So which road do I take? Which do I choose? I would go down both if I could but I can't. And is this the time you "take the road less traveled by" and go for the bumpy ride, but have the robert frost ending "...and it made all the difference." Do you try something that looks too good to be true? Someone please give me some solid and sound adivce.

xoabbyt.